HmM.. jEs wOke uP nOrT lOng aGo.. aT lYk 630pm.. hAa.. yTd.. wAs dA lasT daY oF mA miD sEm tEst.. lAw.. wAs vEry mUch eAsiEr dEn i tOt.. buD aCcoRdinG tA miNg rEn i tiNk i goRt a fEw caRelEss miStAkeS heRe n dEre.. oH mAn... anyWays, aFTer dA pAper hAd tPsU loG comM meEtinG.. we wEre nEedEd tA pRepaRe fEr dA triAl run fOr finAl cLash fEr dA mAin cOmMs.. buD in dA eNd deY cAncelLed iT.. wAs iRritAted cuSh dA eFfoRt n tYm wAs lyk wAsheD inTo dA dRain.. wAs dEpriVed of slEep dEn n wAsnt in a vEry gOod mOod.. wEnt homE inTenDed tA tAke a nAp buD reAched homE rAther laTe n i hAd tA do mA haIr.. sOo in dA eNd din hAd tYm tA sLp.. wEnt tA miT dAda n qiAn hui dEn wEnt tA woRk..
woRk wAs stReSsfuL.. eAch pErson to 2 tAbleS.. norT verY fAmiliaR wit dA sTuFf dEre yEt, n tHen haD tA sEe tO 2 tAbleS.. ahhh... luCkiLy pEoplE dEre wEre quiTe hElpfuL.. dAda n i rEceivEd helP whEneVer neEded.. pLus ytd wAs dinNer n dAncE norT weDding sO eAch courSe wAs alLowed 20 tO 25minS tA sErvE wHich wAsnt dAt baD. dEy had jokErs tO enterTain em n stuFf.. dA entErtaineRs wEre realLy hilariouS.. mAde sUm realLy gOod jokEs wAnted tA burSt out buD i wAs woRking sO had tA contRol.. lOlz! hMmz.. dAda, qiAn hui n i din gEt pAid in dA eNd cuS we din haF vouCher cuSh we foRgot to siGn in tA woRk.. hAbta colLect together wiT diS fRiday's woRk..
We finiShed woRk at boUt 2 2+.. buD aCtualLy we finiShed quiTe eArly.. we wEre jeS slAcking aBout.. aFteR work, mAtthEw aSked dAda iF shE wAnted tA go 'diAo xiA'.. fiSh fEr prAwns aT maRina sOuth deRe.. hE wAs uber nicE tA linDa n iT wAs kinDa oBvioUs daT he lykS dAda.. sO dAda diN rEalLy wAnt to gO.. bud din wAn tingS tA turn aWkwArd by making tinGs sOo oBviouS toO sO shE deCidEd tA jEs go buD wiT mE aCcompAnyiNg heR.. i wAs okaY cuS i tOld ma dAd mA wHereabouTs n hu im wiT.. iT wAs mA furSt tYm deRe n dEy haD dis smAlL ponD lyk aRea n theN pEople jEs sAt arouNd dEre n fiSh fEr prAwns.. dAda n i jEs saT theRe n sEe pEople fiSh.. sEems tA nid alOrt of pAtience.. dAda n i was frEezinG cuSh deRe wAs feW huGe fAns on n tHen it wAs in da miDdle of Da nitE so iTs rather cOld.. pluS dA fAn.. oH mAn! =X wAs rElAxinG.. dAda n i aFter daT leFt wiT jiE wEi tO dA sTalL sElLing dRinks.. dA 3 of uS jEs sAt deRe aTe maGgie mEe, n chit chaTted.. jie wEi tOld uS hoW foRtunAte he fElt tA be wiT vErlin n stuFf.. hmM beRy swEet coUplE.. afTer sum tYm we wEnt bAck deRe n sEe em fiSh aGain.. wEijiE, jAson, maTthew, roLand n anotheR guy wAs fiShinG.. another guRl shi xuAn i tiNk daTs heR nAme.. onE of ouR juniOr cAptain.. yaH n mE, dAda n jiE wei din fisH jes sat dEre n sEe em fiSh..
eVerytinG beCame different aFter reCeiVing a coL.. hAd a tiFf wiT sEan.. i wonDer.. if i had eXpeCted toO mucH.. wondEr if i haD loVed sum1 fer da past 8mths+ wiThout bEing tRusted.. wHether i haD bEen wiT him tA be doubTed.. i wAs sOo fRustrAted, piSsed n fEd-up n yeT aT dA sAme tym, sOo hurT.. sOo hurT by hiS woRdS n aTtitudE.. sOo verY verY hUrt... yEsh it mAy be tRue daT i dun noE em welL bud iT iS truE daT i dO noE a few of eM eithEr from new pArk oR sincE youNg.. n dese r oSo dA onLy few daT dAda n i tok to.. i din noE daT siTting dOwn wiT one oF ma siStahoOd n fRen jiEwei chit chaTting, tokKing bout tings fRom woRk to caRs.. tO reLationship wAs soo wRong dAt sum1 haD to huRt me n douBt me lYk daT.. haviNg to saY alL dEse, doEsnt sEem tA gEt tinGs cLear anywaY.. hu wuD bElieVe.. dese r onLy woRds.. aCtions sPeak louder dEn woRds.. wAds dA poiNt sAying sO muCh to mAke sumonE bElieVe u whEn he duN? no poiNt... i sEe nO poinT.. wAd feR? reCentlY sumonE jEs sumMarise ma chaRacter uSing 90 buCks.. mA goOd fRen.. n noW sumonE sO cLose to mE jEs mAke mE falL levels to dA gRouNd by shoWing mE how muCh hE tRusTed mE.. tHankS mAn.. wAd haF i donE to deservE alL dese..
went home ta slEep n den wokE up.. toT tHru n toT mAybe i shoUld jes forGet eVerytinG n mAybe telL him nicEly hoW i fEel.. jEs lYk hoW i toLd him mA pRoblEms face to faCe in dA cHalEt.. we wEre in da rOom siTting faCe to fAce to eAch other n jeS chaTting.. daT wAs realLy swEet.. toT of doiNg diS n soRting tinGs ouT nicEly bud da furSt tinG he sAid to mE whEn he calLed jEs noW wAs enougH.. enough sAid i wAs tinkiNg too mucH.. forGet eVeryting eRin.. im sOo sAd i ougHt to cRy.. buD i wondEr if da cut ish soo dEep, soo pAin untiL its numB n no tEArs can fLow... he sAid: "cAn i Ask u sumtiNg?" n i sAid.. "yAh?" "u say dAt jiE wEi rigHt, iS he aCtualLy wEi jiE?" ......... dAda.... plS hElp mE.... hElp mE to ansWer hIm.... teArs fiLled ma eyEs..... wad?! u mEan u aCtualLy tink daT i deLibraTely creAted a 'jiE wEi' jEs to hidE from u dAt he iS 'wEi jiE'?! wAds da poinT!! realLy.... wAds dA poinT of doiNg daT mAn! fArkinG helL..... wAd iS alL dEse?!
i m realLy realLy spEechless by alL dEse cRap......... sOo muCh it iS enougH fEr mE to beAr.... i can no lonGer tAke any of dEse shiT... sOo im jes a piEce of untRusTablE cRap... untRusTable rubbiSh... i haF mA oWn fReEdom... i m nort oBliged tA be tieD doWn by u.. i haf ma oWn ciRcle oF fRienDs... i haF dA rigHt tA hAng ouT wiT hu i wanNa bE.. y wEre u acTinG so poSsesively i dun undERsTand... u sAid u'lL change n try tA tonE doWn bud wAd hapPened ytD? it sEems lyK u cAnt dO it.. neBer minD iF u cAnt, dun huRt mE lYk daT. cuSh i diD nuTtin wRong n i faRking dun deSerVe alL dese..............................
No comments:
Post a Comment