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iTs bEen a zilLioN yEaRs siNce i lAst bLogGed.. im tOo busY wiT muh sTuFf.. buD eVen iF i hAf da tYm, im tOo tirEd oR tOo lAzy ta bLog n i duNno wad ta bLog aBouT..

in diS pErioD oF tYm, sOo muCh hAs haPpenEd.. eSp siNce da sTaRt of 2005.. nuTtin haS eVer gonE rigHt.. eVeryTinG daT i dO, sUmtinGs sEem tA cUm intA muh wAy.. n im sOo sOoo iRritAteD, sOo sOo piSsed n aGitAted by eVerYtinG.. sTuDiEs n reLationShiP hAs goTten da woRst pArt of mE.. wAd dA helL... wAd iSh hapPeninG ta mE n muh lifE.. i rEalLy duNno...

tRue diS yeAr iSnT a gOod yEar fER dA yeAr of rAbbIts... buD iF i sEe otHer pEoplE doiNg wEll n finE wiT eVeRytinG, y cAnt i jeS be lyk em? im toTalLy losT rigHt noW... im noRt focusEd in aNy shiT n gOd bLeSs ive losT dA baTtlE.. muH stuDieS ish lyk *bOom* gonE rigHt doWn to duNno wheRe n i cAnt piCk iT up.. i'vE losT sEan... i'vE falLen ilL n tAken mC fReEing mySelf n so heRe i am haVing suM tYm oFf tA tiNk tHrougH, telLing muhsElf wAd i shouLd dO..

im in suCha pAthEtiC sTatE rigHt noW... cAn sUmonE plS cum piCk mE up.. i wAnna bE dA Old eRin.. i wAnNa bE dA eRin wHom i cAn cOpe wiT studieS, yeT woRkinG n haVing a LovEd onE by muh sidE..... buD nO... evErythinG haS chAngeD... muh lifE haS gonE fEr a 360 deGrEes chAngE.. hu cAusEd iT? iTs yoU.. eRin... sO noW, i gueSs itS mE.. i habtA piCk up alL diS shiT by muhsElf...

i wAs tOo spoiLt i wAs tOo dotEd.. n yEs daDa wAs rigHt.. i tOok tinGs fEr gRanteD... i cAnt bLame aNyonE eXcepT fEr myselF... iTs tYm i leAd a difFeRent lifEstYle.. eRin, a guRl hu iSh fulLy indEpEndEnt, hu wilL neVer eVer relY on aNyonE fER anYtinG, hu doEs eVeryTing alL by heRsElf, hu wilL neVer eVer tAke tinGs fEr grAntEd.. wAd pEoplE ish cApAblE of doiNg it fEr mE, i cAn do iT mysElf.. i wilL live my lifE diS waY.. n fRom tHen oN, i'lL only niD mysElf.. i nid eNcourAgemEnt from mySelf, i'lL lEarN hoW to cOpe wiT sTrEss muhsElf, i'lL do alL muh woRk muhsElf wiThout dA help of anYbodY.. woRk aT amAra.. i dun wAn anyonE tA hElp mE in fuTurE.. i wilL lEarn.. i'lL manAge eVerytinG by muhsElf.. i'lL leArn tA rOlL taBleS, i'lL leArn tA caRry oVal trAy i'lL lEarn.. i dun niD anyonE... i wAnNa be indePenDent... gimMe 2mtHs fer eVerytinG n 6mthS fEr woRk at aMarA.. dAt wilL be da bRand neW mE..

PS: cHuBby, u'lL be okAy... tHouGh u mAy noRt reCognisE mE, bUd i beLieVe sEan wilL tAke gOod cAre of u.... *huGz*