hA.. im bLoGginG tA sAy hOw piSsed i m... mutHa fArkinG pieCe oF sHiT.. oOkaY.. sOo i wAs piSsed sinCe yTd niTe.. welL, tO sum up eVerytinG, sEan wAntEd ta mEet mE at lyk bouT 2 2+? n tHen i wAs sOo tireD wanted tA sLeeP so i toT neXt tYm peRhapS.. plUs i haDta aTtEnd da sTupiD NE tAlk dis moRninG at 9.. spEakinG oF whiCh, i woke up at 9 dIs moRning... =\ yEs i wAs 40minS laTe fEr da talk to be eXacT.. yah aS i wAs sAyinG.. he gAve dA kiNd of noRt hapPy tonE, as tHouGh oh aS if cumIng ouT awhiLe u wilL diEe.... i was fEelinG kinda baD n so i msGed him n apologiSed bouT iT.. n gueSs wAd? i was aSkeD noRt tA apologiSe n tHen sOme thinGs r jes noRt MEANT TO BE.... lyk wad tHe fUck!? wAd dA helL r u tokKing aBouT mAn... wAs nicE enouGh tA mSg u cus i feLt bAd.. welL, prolLy sum peopLe wAsnt underSTanDing enouGh tA understanD hoW woRn ouT i wAs.. wAd cAn i sAY?
iT has bEen 15 dAys... n i was tOlEraTing his mindSeT.. da tinGs he sAid.. n i tiNk itS tYm i bLow it oFf... sO hE has a bLog noW.. n so fAr it haS bEen 3 enTrieS~ lets sEe da furSt entRy.. wAs bery swEet whiCh dEscribEd alL da stuFf dAt we diD togethEr.. alL da swEet tYms dAt wE haD.. untiL i caMe acRoSs diS sEntEncE: 'But is it that all she has said in the past is just for the sake of saying?' oH sO tHankS mAn.. dEn aGain u r doubTing muh lovE fEr u onCe... tO thiNk i meAnt eVery sinGle woRd everY singLe tinG dAt i diD n u r saYing diS.. u r wondERing iF alL thosE wERe trUe... i can neVer imaginE hoW cAn onE compAre 2 total siTuaTionS... n stArt cominG up wiT silLy aSsumptiOns.. to be eXact, silLy hYsterical assumptioNs whiCh trigGers oFf onE's emotioNs.. lEaVing em norT noeinG wheTher to crY, to lAugH, oR to be angRy...
alL in alL, his 3 entRieS r alL bouT mE, muh changE, amaRa, alL negAtivE sTuFfs daT i diD... n hE cLaimEd daT untiL noW he DONT KNOW da reAson tO ouR brEak up... n haRlo?? lyk i din eXplAin ta u beForE?? sOo alL thoSe wEre prolLy jeS cRAp, bulLshiT, ruBbiSh to u... anywAY, dun wiSh ta saY it AGAIN.. wAds dA poiNt? whEn eVen when i have toLd him, he FORGETS n INSISTS thaT it is sincE dA daY i woRked at amaRa.. im soO tired.... sOo soO bery tireD... i oncE tHougHt thRougH wAd he sAid... i oncE consideRed and aCceptEd the impLicaTion dAt he maDe.. dAt i haVe chAngeD sincE amAra.. buD sum incidEnts jes make me fEel daT, ?? nO? im stilL mE.. y dun u turn in anothEr direCtion n saY dat u havE changeD sinCe i stArtEd woRking aT amArA~ y dun u saY daT u dun lYk mE tA woRk deRe n thuS cAusE u tA haVe a chAnge in yer aTtitudE..
i haVe aLreADy sTopPed woRk at aMaRa~ fer 4 wEeks.. n i may stop iT permanEntly.. n from heRe, i wilL provE tA u dAt i m stilL hu i am n iTs nort cuS of aMaRa~ n hu da helL sAy im owAes loOkinG forWaRd ta woRk at aMaRa? hA~ wAd nonSenSe is diS.. puTting woRds intO muh mouTh.. joKe of da daY.. im goiNg ta woRk fEr dA sake of monEy n cus of function nort cus of anytinG else, noRT cus of anybody eLsE~ iF u duNno, reAd dis n now u noE. oH? i forGEt~ wads dA poinT.. da minDsEt of u puTting alL bLame on change of mE is sEt on amAra.. wAds da poiNt of saYing alL diS? *duHhh* quoTed: 'Did u realise u become a changed person when u joined Amara and started going out with them?' finE. yes i changEd. i reAlisEd... i was da onE alL dis whiLe.. i chAnged, i wAs no longEr da Old erin. doEs dAt sAtisfY u noW??
oh yeS fer yeR info, yEs, u haVe asKed mE ouT aT da wrong tYm tWicE sinCe we bRokE up.. if u tiNk dAt im norT aBle tA mit up wit u, den u r wRonG. tink bAck.. u told me all thiNgs u wAntEd tA paSs tA mel n i aSked u y din u wanNa paSs tA mE yerSelf n u sAid nort yEt u wEre afRaid u couLdnt contRol yersElf.. dis is a replY tO one of yEr fRiendSter mEssAges.. u said daT whEn im reAdy, we'lL mit out fEr a moviE~ fer gOds sAke.. i should sAy dis to u insTeAd.. i was alL aloNg reAdy.. u r da onE... norT mE~ "Well, now... I see that she's the one who can take it as if nothing has happened.. Drinking and merrying with amara ppl." oH realLy? dAt iSnt aCting as if nuTtin hapPenEd.. bud meRely aCceptinG wad it is noW n wad do u nOe? meRrying wiT amaRa peoplE? im tirEd to go oN... at da enD of da day, itS stilL amArA, its stilL amAra pEoplE.. diSlikE em so mucH? go find faulT arrEst alL stAff n ceAse amAra bAnqueT opeRation thEn! hu cAReS? im norT wiT em anywaY~
"Yupz, I admit i'm a loser.. Maybe these r the reasons for u to hate me for now.. Call me the bastard, call me the jerk..." okaY.. sEan tAn iF u r reAding diS, u lisTen.. u wAnt me tA haTe u rite? finE. i gRant u yEr wiSh.. i do wAd u lYk.. i wilL sTaRt haTing u fRom diS vERy momEnt on.. dAts wad u wAntEd iSnt it? dAt wilL mAke u hapPier iSnt it? okaY tHen.. fRom todaY onwARds, deLete me oFf fRom yer conTaCts, friEndSTer, phonebOok n eVerytinG.... n theN, dun boTher ta cUm loOk fEr me anYmoRe... noRt eVen fRenS.. sinCe daTs da way u wan it to bE.. u noE mE, wHen i haTe a pErson, iT wilL onLy be an enEmy to mE.. i wilL neVer haTe a fRen.. sO, heRe iT is. u aSked mE fer diS... n i herEby gRant u yer wiSh~
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