sAy gOodbyE tA amAra rinZ.. iT alL hapPeneD sO suDdenLy.. n i realLy mEan SUDDEN dAt it realLy leFt me duMb foundEd fEr quiTe sUm tYm.. mAin rEasOn, jAson rEsiGneD n wAs given onLy 24hrS noTicE. mEaninG? ytd onwArdS, wE wun be sEeing jaSon anymore.. da wHole cliquE of us had sAid if jAson leFt, aLl of us wouLd leAve wiT him.. welL, i haD no comMentS. noRt cuS of anYtinG buD simplY cuZ i din woRk dEre loNg enough to realLy gEt da 'one fEr alL alL fEr onE' bonD fEelinG.. buD i leFt. quEstioN is y? ah paT sAid noW daT i wAs ouTta joB, muh dEciSion ta "folLoW ta TrEnd" was DUMB. yEs DUMB. he saiD i was DUMB. am i? wAs i?
initialLy i was rAtHer pisSed by his comMent. dEn aGaiN, i cant bLame him. wad doEs he noE bout da hapPeninGs intErnalLy? waD does hE undERsTanD? hE noE nuTs bout iT.. okaY lets noRt saY ah paT.. i mySelf sEriouSly aiNt verY suRe leT eVen aH paT.. if vincEnt din sAy daT.. alL 7 of us wouLd sTay n help him finisH dis laSt funcTioN n dEn noRt cUm baCk aGain. at fursT he pin-poiNted roLand, wEijiE n alVin. i was shoCked. da 3 of em cAme laTe into da roOm fEr meEting n vincEnt jes anNouncEd jAson's reSignation n whEn dEy came in, vincEnt rEpeAted n he sAid: "im suRe alL 3 of u shouLd noE." hMmz, lyk haRlo? wAds dAt supPoseD tA mEan? ok neBer minD vincEnt wEnt on n sAy: "hu Wans tO leAve wiT jAson mAy leAve." roLand raiSed his hAnd, den wejiE, den aLviN, dEn iAn n wentAo.. dA n i was shoCked wE jes stoOd dEre.. bud aS deY wEre tO leAve dA roOm n wAlk out on vincenT, iAn pulLed mE. sO da n i leFt tOo.. bud wE realLy din noe wAd wAs goiNg on..
at dAt poiNt of tYm, dA was tinkinG jiewei hoW.. n i was tinkinG wheRe's muh bRothEr.. in da oFfiCe, aLan n alvin almost had a fight.. jieWei cAme to me n dAda n begGed us tA sTay n finiSh dis funcTioN n noRT leT vincent's funCtion coCk up.. he saY dis wAsnt dA way to sEttle tingS.. it waSnt rigHt at alL.. muh bRo cAme n Ask us y aRent we sTaying. he said diS way of sEttlinG tings haD no senSe of professIonaliSm at all.. yEs prOfeSsionalism waS da woRd. indEed we laCked of daT. dAt leFt me n da pondEring r we doiNg da rigHt tinG. bud aFtEr tinKinG throuGh, cMon mAn, tAlk aBout profEssIonaliSm, vinCent himself doEsnt haF dat aT alL in dA furst plaCe. wAd is diS? hinTing or rather saYinG ouT thosE hu is wit jAson may leAve. wAd iS dis? mAking tinGs so diFficuLt n obviouS, dis is nort da way. if he haD wAd we coL "pRofEssIonaLism" in hAnDling maTter, he wUdnt haF said diS kinDa tingS. sinCe he Din haF daT, y shouLd wE ansWer him in a pRofEssional waY? wAlking out on vInceNt i noW tinK, he dEsErve it.
jAson Was veRy vERy doWn ytD.. i can say i realLy duNno how mAny hourS he cRieD.. fElt realLy vEry sAd fEr him. at furSt i din realLy lYk him. bud afTer sO muCh, aCtuaLly othEr tHan thosE aTtitudEs n unplEasAnt stuFf he Said at tYms, he diD aCtuaLly look aFter me n carEd fer me.. jAson Asked if i wAs hungRY ytD n i said yah n he orDered chiCken winGs.. dEn he askeD aLvin tA tAke one fer me.. den he toLd me: "eriN lai cHi.. yi hou mei yoU ji hui zai zhe yAng zAo gu ni lEr.." i so WantEd tA huG him.. alL aloNg i kepT rEmEmbeRing Da negative stuFfs he diD. afTer rEading jan's bLog, bout peoplE only reMembeRing u fer da bad tings u hAd donE n noRt alL dA goOd tingS u had done befoRe, i cum to reAlisE dAt muh waY of tinkinG wAs wronG.. everyonE has tHeir fLaws.. y din i tink bouT dA smS-es jAson gave me encourAgemEnt n aDvicEs whEn sEan n i had probLem? y din i tinK bouT me goiNg tA amAra aFter skeWl tA find jAson whEn i was doWn wiT relaTionship proBlems wiT sEan n he brouGht alL of us ouT fer dinNer at seRangooN kopitiaM after daT? y din i tiNk bout hoW he kEpt takIng fOod fEr me dat nitE at neWton circuS? y din i tiNk bout him lEtTing mE, jeS me weAr 2 pAir of eArrings duRing woRk n sCreWing alL otHers if dey wore moRe dEn one pAir of eArrinGs? y diD i noRt tiNk bouT hoW he din sColD me fEr nort bun-inG muh haiR da other tYm rounD whEn i din buT iT was requiReD? yEs dey may be minoR stuFfs, buD, wAds diFf? da concluSion iS stilL he cAres...
tOo many tinGs... i wAs wronG, fer owAes hoLding on to da neGativE imaGes.. roLand toLd me ytD, yEs he kneW dat i dun lYk jAson bud he tolD me jAson was rEalLy rEalLy a vEry nice guY.. i noW agrEe dAt jAson is a niCe guY.. y diD he fEel so doWn? yEs partly duE to da failure in his cAreEr, bud he fElt so sorRy fer cAuSing alL 8 oF us incLuding dAviD our captaiN, to lose ouR job bcuZ of him.. no jAson, we leFt cuS we supPorted u, dun bLame yerSelf cuS we leFt on ouR oWn aCcoRd. he owAes saiD: "duA chiu boh doH, suay chiu buAy doh" mEaninG if da big tree neVer falL, da small onEs wiLl nort falL.. n he saiD ytd dAt da big trEe has falLen.. i fEel realLy soRry Fer him..
aFter alL da tings he toLd mE, jAson realLy dun deServE alL diS.. dun woRry jAson, i bElieVe u'lL get a fruitful rEturn afTer alL diS.. it may prolLy be a bLeSsing in disguisE.. maybe u'lL geT doubLe da amt of eFfort u put in fer amAra.. u'lL neVer noE.. so sTay StronG, we'lL alL be heRe fEr u.. =))
as fEr frenz, itS tYm tA sPenD more tym wiT em.. da, we haf noRt changeD. we r stilL hu we r.. yEs amAra may haf maDe An impAct to ouR liVes, bud it haS maDe us leArn, maDe uS sEe more tinGs, sEe tingS outSidE oF our boOks n notES.. tRuE diS may nort be ouR lifestylE, dRinkiNg, goiNg out n goiNg homE 6am in da moRniNg almosT eVerYday, buD it haSnt mAke uS commiT cRimEs? it diD norT mAke us go into dRugS? dey r meRely laTe hAngouTs at unuSual hourS bud dEy ainT bad compAny.. amAra haS tauGht us aloRt. n as fer fRenZ lyk familYhoOt, dA n i wilL spEnd moRe tYm wiT u guYs.. we r soRry if mAny atimEs we hAf neGLecTed alL of u, buD one tinG fEr suRe, dA n i stiLl lurVe eAch n eVeryonE of u no maTter hoW litTle we sEe eAch otHer, hoW litTle conVerSations we haF.. eAch n everYone oF u hAs neVer bEen fOrgoTten by uS.. tRusT uS daT, dA n i wilL spEnd moRe tym wiT alL oF u.. neVer giF up on uS, neVer giVe up on fAmilYhoOt cuS we'lL owAes be a fAmiLy....
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