*siGhs* i'Ve cHangEd.. i reAlLy haVe cHangEd.. n i knOw itS fOr the gOod.. iTs somEtimEs sOo huRtinG n sAd thAt i mAke an eFfoRt to changE buD i caNt fEel thAt pEoplE aRouNd mE, mY fAmiLy, mY fRiEndS, aPpreCiaTe tHe change in mE, or raTheR the eFfort thAt i've maDe to imProvE..
in tHe pAst, i usEd to bE sOo hoT tEmpEreD.. sOo shoRt tEmPeRed... sOo impAtiEnT.. sOo.. ... sOo lian-isH.. juDginG pEoplE by tHEir LoOks.. sTarinG aT thEm uNreAsonAblY eVen if thEy diDnt dO anytHing tO oFfeNd mE.. sTartinG anD eNding eVery of the sEntEncEs comIng ouTta mY mouTh wiTh vuLgAriTieS.. i duN noE hOw tO tHiNk sEnsiBly.. livE eVerydaY of mY livE meAninGleSsly.. hAnGing ouT wiTh thE wronG gRoupS of fRenS at aRcaDe.. at tYms tAkinG up a ciGareTte to haVe a puFf.. viOlating sKeWl rUleS.. aRent u diSgusTeD? welL i aM.. i Am diSgusTed to tHink dAt buFfy wAs lyk thiS in tHe pAst.. fRenS neVer calLed mE eRin.. deY calLed mE 'buFfy'.. my niCknAme thEn.... buD tHen aGain.. it wAs prolLy alL thEse thAt i haVe gOne tHrouGh, thAt nurTurEd mE inTo onE, inTo tHe noW brand neW eRin, the noW mOre anD beTter eDucaTed eRin, who iS noW strEet sMaRt anD vEry muCh mOre mAturE...
wAds mE nOw? alL the oPposiTe thaT i mEntionEd aBovE.. i noW bElivE in nort judging pEople fRom whAt they aRe on the ouTsiDe.. i tRy my beSt to control my tEmpEr.. i sEriouSly cuT doWn on swEarinG.. i dun sWear unneCeSsariLy.. i dun haTe anYonE.. i gEt angrY fEr a rEason.. i aim to sTrivE in my lifE.. i waNna eXcEl anD be a vERy sucCessFuL womAn.. i dun bEliEve in grEed.. iTs lame shiT~ other thAn goiNg to skEwl and hAnginG out wiTh fREnS, i cUm homE.. eitHer reaD a bOok, dO somE refLectioN n bLog oR sPenD quAlity tYm wiTh fAmiLy mEmbeRs n reLativEs.. raTher thAn hanGing ouT in sOme stinkY arCaDe.. i dun tOucH cigAreTtes~ wHenVer im angRy.. i try to anaLysE and fiGure ouT thE beSt wAy ouT to soLve the pRobLem.... i tRy to bE aCcomodatinG.. buD in the eNd wAd dO i geT? i chAnge to be a niCe peRson, in hopE of mAking moRe tRue fRiEnds, and aT the sAme tym, i bElieVe thaT if you wAnt sumonE to treAt u wElL, u musT firSt be nicE to thEm n trEat them wElL.. it alL bEgins wiThin yoU.. take foR eXamplE the National Day Rally by PM Lee Hsien Loong.. he mEntionEd bouT thE eMphasiS on the seRvicE culTurE.. PM Lee sAid:" CustomEr atTituDes musT chAngE.. if a cuStomEr trEats yoU likE diRt, yoU wun bE abLe to serVe thEm welL wiTh pridE.. CustomERs shouLd undERsTand thAt theY aRe tRying to loOk afTer yoU, therEfoRe yoU shouLd at leASt be couRteouS..." dat simplE.. its the sAme LogiC~
in boTh siTuaTionS, i hAd tRied to aCcomodAte, i haD tRied to eXplAin and cLeAr aNy miSundersTandinG, buD i sEemEd to mAke a fOol ouTta mySelf iNstEad... it mAde me pOndEr... it mAke me tHink... m i daT bad? or m i dat eASiLy bulLieD? daMmit dis wAsnt mE in the pAst.. i m wAd i m noW bcuS i chAngEd.. n i dun reGrEt mAking thE movE, mAking the eFfoRt and mAking thE deciSion to chAngE.. i chAngE for a rEasoN~ i haVe to improvE, i cAnt always rEmAin in the loW soCial sTatuS in the soCieTy.. i musT leArn hoW to carry mySelf.. i haVe gOod fAmilY upbRinGinG i musNt disAppOint my fAmiLy.. it hurTs mE so baD i sO wAnnA rUn homE n cOop mySelf in my rOom n breAkdOwn n crY... bud nO... nOo wAy... im noT gonNa do daT.. i haf to bE sTronG... liFe is fulL of sEtbAcks n i muSnt fAlL... whaTs moRe itS onLy a very minOr sEtbAck.. pluS, they aRe noT worTh evEry sinGle tEar of miNe..
jAn n dA tAlkEd to mE... dEy adVicEd mE.. theY tOld mE it is gOod thAt i cHangeD.. buD thEre aRe tYms wHerbY i dun haF to change oR aCcomodaTe cErtain kinD of pEoplE hu wilL NEVER apPreciaTe anD wilL onLy tHink gOod of thEmsElves.... n liVe in tHeir oWn seLfiSh woRld.. on thE waY homE in tHe buS, i tHougHt bout wAd thEy toLd mE... n i think... welL, thEy aRe right.. i wAs tOo nAivE... i kneW they aRe suCh lAmeRs.. n yet i chOse not tO bElieVe n daTs wAd i gEt in the eNd... wronG moVe~ so wRong moVe.. anywaYz, foRgEt it... i leArnt... i wilL moVe on... i wilL knoW noE nOw hoW to hAndLe difFerent pEoplE at diFfErent situaTioNs.. n i wilL nOrt sToop mySelf so loW n mAke mySelf lOok lyk a fOol anymoRe..... onCe, tWicE, buD neVer THRICE.. NEVER.......... diS i pRomisE u.....
in tHe pAst, i usEd to bE sOo hoT tEmpEreD.. sOo shoRt tEmPeRed... sOo impAtiEnT.. sOo.. ... sOo lian-isH.. juDginG pEoplE by tHEir LoOks.. sTarinG aT thEm uNreAsonAblY eVen if thEy diDnt dO anytHing tO oFfeNd mE.. sTartinG anD eNding eVery of the sEntEncEs comIng ouTta mY mouTh wiTh vuLgAriTieS.. i duN noE hOw tO tHiNk sEnsiBly.. livE eVerydaY of mY livE meAninGleSsly.. hAnGing ouT wiTh thE wronG gRoupS of fRenS at aRcaDe.. at tYms tAkinG up a ciGareTte to haVe a puFf.. viOlating sKeWl rUleS.. aRent u diSgusTeD? welL i aM.. i Am diSgusTed to tHink dAt buFfy wAs lyk thiS in tHe pAst.. fRenS neVer calLed mE eRin.. deY calLed mE 'buFfy'.. my niCknAme thEn.... buD tHen aGain.. it wAs prolLy alL thEse thAt i haVe gOne tHrouGh, thAt nurTurEd mE inTo onE, inTo tHe noW brand neW eRin, the noW mOre anD beTter eDucaTed eRin, who iS noW strEet sMaRt anD vEry muCh mOre mAturE...
wAds mE nOw? alL the oPposiTe thaT i mEntionEd aBovE.. i noW bElivE in nort judging pEople fRom whAt they aRe on the ouTsiDe.. i tRy my beSt to control my tEmpEr.. i sEriouSly cuT doWn on swEarinG.. i dun sWear unneCeSsariLy.. i dun haTe anYonE.. i gEt angrY fEr a rEason.. i aim to sTrivE in my lifE.. i waNna eXcEl anD be a vERy sucCessFuL womAn.. i dun bEliEve in grEed.. iTs lame shiT~ other thAn goiNg to skEwl and hAnginG out wiTh fREnS, i cUm homE.. eitHer reaD a bOok, dO somE refLectioN n bLog oR sPenD quAlity tYm wiTh fAmiLy mEmbeRs n reLativEs.. raTher thAn hanGing ouT in sOme stinkY arCaDe.. i dun tOucH cigAreTtes~ wHenVer im angRy.. i try to anaLysE and fiGure ouT thE beSt wAy ouT to soLve the pRobLem.... i tRy to bE aCcomodatinG.. buD in the eNd wAd dO i geT? i chAnge to be a niCe peRson, in hopE of mAking moRe tRue fRiEnds, and aT the sAme tym, i bElieVe thaT if you wAnt sumonE to treAt u wElL, u musT firSt be nicE to thEm n trEat them wElL.. it alL bEgins wiThin yoU.. take foR eXamplE the National Day Rally by PM Lee Hsien Loong.. he mEntionEd bouT thE eMphasiS on the seRvicE culTurE.. PM Lee sAid:" CustomEr atTituDes musT chAngE.. if a cuStomEr trEats yoU likE diRt, yoU wun bE abLe to serVe thEm welL wiTh pridE.. CustomERs shouLd undERsTand thAt theY aRe tRying to loOk afTer yoU, therEfoRe yoU shouLd at leASt be couRteouS..." dat simplE.. its the sAme LogiC~
in boTh siTuaTionS, i hAd tRied to aCcomodAte, i haD tRied to eXplAin and cLeAr aNy miSundersTandinG, buD i sEemEd to mAke a fOol ouTta mySelf iNstEad... it mAde me pOndEr... it mAke me tHink... m i daT bad? or m i dat eASiLy bulLieD? daMmit dis wAsnt mE in the pAst.. i m wAd i m noW bcuS i chAngEd.. n i dun reGrEt mAking thE movE, mAking the eFfoRt and mAking thE deciSion to chAngE.. i chAngE for a rEasoN~ i haVe to improvE, i cAnt always rEmAin in the loW soCial sTatuS in the soCieTy.. i musT leArn hoW to carry mySelf.. i haVe gOod fAmilY upbRinGinG i musNt disAppOint my fAmiLy.. it hurTs mE so baD i sO wAnnA rUn homE n cOop mySelf in my rOom n breAkdOwn n crY... bud nO... nOo wAy... im noT gonNa do daT.. i haf to bE sTronG... liFe is fulL of sEtbAcks n i muSnt fAlL... whaTs moRe itS onLy a very minOr sEtbAck.. pluS, they aRe noT worTh evEry sinGle tEar of miNe..
jAn n dA tAlkEd to mE... dEy adVicEd mE.. theY tOld mE it is gOod thAt i cHangeD.. buD thEre aRe tYms wHerbY i dun haF to change oR aCcomodaTe cErtain kinD of pEoplE hu wilL NEVER apPreciaTe anD wilL onLy tHink gOod of thEmsElves.... n liVe in tHeir oWn seLfiSh woRld.. on thE waY homE in tHe buS, i tHougHt bout wAd thEy toLd mE... n i think... welL, thEy aRe right.. i wAs tOo nAivE... i kneW they aRe suCh lAmeRs.. n yet i chOse not tO bElieVe n daTs wAd i gEt in the eNd... wronG moVe~ so wRong moVe.. anywaYz, foRgEt it... i leArnt... i wilL moVe on... i wilL knoW noE nOw hoW to hAndLe difFerent pEoplE at diFfErent situaTioNs.. n i wilL nOrt sToop mySelf so loW n mAke mySelf lOok lyk a fOol anymoRe..... onCe, tWicE, buD neVer THRICE.. NEVER.......... diS i pRomisE u.....
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