Im feeling good. Ive done so many good deeds today.. Okay not exactly alot but at least more than the usual days.. X) Woke up 7am in the morning for my driving practical.. Utter shagness.. =\ Went to the school with my eyes half-opened.. Today instructor was Kevin again.. The one and only instructor that i once liked alot.. Unfortunately he's car number 105 will be changed to automatic transmission from tmr onwards.. Which means i prolly will never ever get the chance of having him as my instructor ever again.. =(
After practical went to AMK central alone to visit my dearest Dr Chia again to get my rubber band done.. One of my green bracket rubber band came off on the very night when i just changed my braces colour. =x So darn idiotic.. Anyways, went to the hawker to get dad & myself lunch then i went home.. On the bus, this aunty alighted the bus and i think she went marketing cus she was carrying 2 big bags which apparently seem kinda heavy.. I was seating on the single seat right behind the back door and she happen to come and put her stuff on the ground n stood beside me.. So i stood up and offered her my seat.. She said it was okay cus her stop is just nearby but i insisted that she took a seat so i went behind to get another seat.. Bus was almost empty..
In the end, the stop she was going to alight is actually the stop that im alighting too! N it isnt near from where i offered her the seat larh! Silly aunty.. Haha.. So when we were waiting for the bus to stop at the door she said buddha will bless me with safety and studies will excel.. Haha.. Funny aunty.. She looks so cute i think she must be quite pretty in her younger days. Yupps so i helped her to take one bag down. She said it was heavy but to me, Heh.. Work at Kriston made me stronger and i din thought it was any heavy.. So i wanted to help her take home or whereever she wanted to go but she said she parked her bicycle just opposite the road so its okay.. So i walked home.. Long walk from the florist to my house.. Just when i walked till the 163 bus-stop i turned back and saw the aunty on her bicycle.. lolz.. She told me she was staying at which block and i told her mine too.. She told me which floor she was staying at too and asked me to go up to her place one day.. I m thinking i could prolly get her a basket of fruits or wadever but guess wad? She din tell me her unit number.... How the hell am i going to know where she stay.. Knock every single unit on the floor and ask,"Hello is there a cute aunty staying here?" Duhhh.... Haha so thats my good deed for the day! XD
Hmmz, just had my lunch.. Am feeling so satisfied cus i finished my part for Fac Mgt ytd night.. Was sick so took MC for ytd.. Stayed home and did my Fac Mgt the whole day.. i really mean WHOLE day kae... Baby called me several times ytd and each time he called to ask me what am i doing, i'll be answering him the same thing again and again,"Doing project lor.." How boring larh! Except taking at break at 530 and 9 to watch chn8 serials the rest of the time im simply sitting right in front of the com doing my stupid report which consists of a total of lyk 10 pages.. Gosh.. But at least, i did what i was determined to do.. That was to finish Fac Mgt by yesterday.. XD How proud of myself.. lalala~ >=)
As for today, im going to revise my work.. Haha shocked anyone? Nono nuttin to shock about.. Im just in the mood for work again my dear friends u all should be happy for me for finding my mood back! N dear Jan Baby, no more lazy bones girl! *Claps* =D
Oh yah.. Was considering going town today for shopping.. Baby suggested.. But apparently he went out ytd night and came home only when i woke up this morning which was 7am in the morning.. Furthermore, he drank alot and i think he was either drunk or tipsy when i spoke to him on the phone this morning.. Yeah wadeverrr...... So much has happened recently.. I thought after Baby stopped working, he would have more time for me and we would have more time to boost our relationship. But i was wrong. All turned out to be the other way round. What has gone wrong? Why has it all have to be like that? I dont know anymore... N when i make a fuss outta him not being able to accompany me, i feel like a bloody possessive and demanding bitch and i hate that feeling.. I wonder, do guys know that sometimes when a girl says,"No", she's saying,"Yes" in her heart.. Do guys know that sometimes when a girl says,"Dont want", she actually "Wants".. Do guys know that sometimes when a girl says,"Dont need", she actually "Need".. Well, i guess not.. Makes me think why are they so bloody dumb and oblivious sometimes. Do they really not know? Or are they acting as if they don't know? Wth.. Girls, if ur bf asks u if u need him to accompany u, will you sometimes say,"No need" but yet ur heart actually longs for him to come and accompany you? And when ur bf takes ur ans and not come and meet you will you be pissed? Will you be irritated that why cant ur bf be more persistent or say something like," Never mind larh i accompany you.." Or "But I wanna see you".. Will you? Well, i do.. But it never seems to happen. Im a girl. How do you expect me to say,"Can u come and accompany me pls pls plsss?" Do you expect me to keep begging you to meet me or even keep requesting repeatedly for you to come and accompany me? Im a girl, I have my pride and dignity. My mindset is: If you wanna meet me on your own accord, eventually you will without me even asking. If you dun want or have no intention, whats the point of even asking? Take for example ytd night. He asked if i wanna go town today to shop for new year clothings. I said see first. Reason being, i wasnt sure if i could finish my Fac Mgt by ytd. Otherwise i cant afford to go out today cus im going JB tmr.. I din say i dun wanna go. I said SEE FIRST. But merely seeing he's actions, drinking so much and coming home only 7am in the morning, logically will you be able to wake up and go out in the noon time? NO. 95% no.
Its really saddening recently to see how lightly ur bf takes your comments and actions. Wanted to go out ytd to drink cus its David's birthday. But i could tell baby wasnt really happy and he straight away said,"Dont drink arh!" Wtf.. Hello its a pub? U either sing or u drink. I dun sing i'll only drink. U ask me dun drink, then fucking hell whats the point of me going down? I might as well jolly well stay at home and sit in front of my com to finish my project. He said i was sick. Im on medication i cant drink. Reasonable. But i recovered. I was sick cus i was on the verge of having a fever due to insufficient sleep. Slept well the night before and i was fine. What do you know? Its me who's sick and its me who knows my own condition not you. But apparently he asked me not to lie and that he's sick before. Okay fine. Wad more do u want me to say? Kept calling me ytd night when he was out to ask what am i doing and am i feeling very bored. like OBVIOUSLY?!! So what if you know? So what if im bored? What can you do if you dun even take the initiative to leave ur friends and maybe come to my house downstairs to look for me. We can just sit there and stare and not do anything or say anything or spend any money. Ur presence is all that i need. But no? U didnt even do that. So just STFU and not ask. If you dun ask, i'll prolly feel better. Why why why... Can someone enlighten me and tell me whats wrong. Is it just me? Or is it him?
Maybe i shouldnt put my heart so much into relationship and use it more wisely to concentrate on my studies..
After practical went to AMK central alone to visit my dearest Dr Chia again to get my rubber band done.. One of my green bracket rubber band came off on the very night when i just changed my braces colour. =x So darn idiotic.. Anyways, went to the hawker to get dad & myself lunch then i went home.. On the bus, this aunty alighted the bus and i think she went marketing cus she was carrying 2 big bags which apparently seem kinda heavy.. I was seating on the single seat right behind the back door and she happen to come and put her stuff on the ground n stood beside me.. So i stood up and offered her my seat.. She said it was okay cus her stop is just nearby but i insisted that she took a seat so i went behind to get another seat.. Bus was almost empty..
In the end, the stop she was going to alight is actually the stop that im alighting too! N it isnt near from where i offered her the seat larh! Silly aunty.. Haha.. So when we were waiting for the bus to stop at the door she said buddha will bless me with safety and studies will excel.. Haha.. Funny aunty.. She looks so cute i think she must be quite pretty in her younger days. Yupps so i helped her to take one bag down. She said it was heavy but to me, Heh.. Work at Kriston made me stronger and i din thought it was any heavy.. So i wanted to help her take home or whereever she wanted to go but she said she parked her bicycle just opposite the road so its okay.. So i walked home.. Long walk from the florist to my house.. Just when i walked till the 163 bus-stop i turned back and saw the aunty on her bicycle.. lolz.. She told me she was staying at which block and i told her mine too.. She told me which floor she was staying at too and asked me to go up to her place one day.. I m thinking i could prolly get her a basket of fruits or wadever but guess wad? She din tell me her unit number.... How the hell am i going to know where she stay.. Knock every single unit on the floor and ask,"Hello is there a cute aunty staying here?" Duhhh.... Haha so thats my good deed for the day! XD
Hmmz, just had my lunch.. Am feeling so satisfied cus i finished my part for Fac Mgt ytd night.. Was sick so took MC for ytd.. Stayed home and did my Fac Mgt the whole day.. i really mean WHOLE day kae... Baby called me several times ytd and each time he called to ask me what am i doing, i'll be answering him the same thing again and again,"Doing project lor.." How boring larh! Except taking at break at 530 and 9 to watch chn8 serials the rest of the time im simply sitting right in front of the com doing my stupid report which consists of a total of lyk 10 pages.. Gosh.. But at least, i did what i was determined to do.. That was to finish Fac Mgt by yesterday.. XD How proud of myself.. lalala~ >=)
As for today, im going to revise my work.. Haha shocked anyone? Nono nuttin to shock about.. Im just in the mood for work again my dear friends u all should be happy for me for finding my mood back! N dear Jan Baby, no more lazy bones girl! *Claps* =D
Oh yah.. Was considering going town today for shopping.. Baby suggested.. But apparently he went out ytd night and came home only when i woke up this morning which was 7am in the morning.. Furthermore, he drank alot and i think he was either drunk or tipsy when i spoke to him on the phone this morning.. Yeah wadeverrr...... So much has happened recently.. I thought after Baby stopped working, he would have more time for me and we would have more time to boost our relationship. But i was wrong. All turned out to be the other way round. What has gone wrong? Why has it all have to be like that? I dont know anymore... N when i make a fuss outta him not being able to accompany me, i feel like a bloody possessive and demanding bitch and i hate that feeling.. I wonder, do guys know that sometimes when a girl says,"No", she's saying,"Yes" in her heart.. Do guys know that sometimes when a girl says,"Dont want", she actually "Wants".. Do guys know that sometimes when a girl says,"Dont need", she actually "Need".. Well, i guess not.. Makes me think why are they so bloody dumb and oblivious sometimes. Do they really not know? Or are they acting as if they don't know? Wth.. Girls, if ur bf asks u if u need him to accompany u, will you sometimes say,"No need" but yet ur heart actually longs for him to come and accompany you? And when ur bf takes ur ans and not come and meet you will you be pissed? Will you be irritated that why cant ur bf be more persistent or say something like," Never mind larh i accompany you.." Or "But I wanna see you".. Will you? Well, i do.. But it never seems to happen. Im a girl. How do you expect me to say,"Can u come and accompany me pls pls plsss?" Do you expect me to keep begging you to meet me or even keep requesting repeatedly for you to come and accompany me? Im a girl, I have my pride and dignity. My mindset is: If you wanna meet me on your own accord, eventually you will without me even asking. If you dun want or have no intention, whats the point of even asking? Take for example ytd night. He asked if i wanna go town today to shop for new year clothings. I said see first. Reason being, i wasnt sure if i could finish my Fac Mgt by ytd. Otherwise i cant afford to go out today cus im going JB tmr.. I din say i dun wanna go. I said SEE FIRST. But merely seeing he's actions, drinking so much and coming home only 7am in the morning, logically will you be able to wake up and go out in the noon time? NO. 95% no.
Its really saddening recently to see how lightly ur bf takes your comments and actions. Wanted to go out ytd to drink cus its David's birthday. But i could tell baby wasnt really happy and he straight away said,"Dont drink arh!" Wtf.. Hello its a pub? U either sing or u drink. I dun sing i'll only drink. U ask me dun drink, then fucking hell whats the point of me going down? I might as well jolly well stay at home and sit in front of my com to finish my project. He said i was sick. Im on medication i cant drink. Reasonable. But i recovered. I was sick cus i was on the verge of having a fever due to insufficient sleep. Slept well the night before and i was fine. What do you know? Its me who's sick and its me who knows my own condition not you. But apparently he asked me not to lie and that he's sick before. Okay fine. Wad more do u want me to say? Kept calling me ytd night when he was out to ask what am i doing and am i feeling very bored. like OBVIOUSLY?!! So what if you know? So what if im bored? What can you do if you dun even take the initiative to leave ur friends and maybe come to my house downstairs to look for me. We can just sit there and stare and not do anything or say anything or spend any money. Ur presence is all that i need. But no? U didnt even do that. So just STFU and not ask. If you dun ask, i'll prolly feel better. Why why why... Can someone enlighten me and tell me whats wrong. Is it just me? Or is it him?
Maybe i shouldnt put my heart so much into relationship and use it more wisely to concentrate on my studies..
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