Ook whoever's reading my blog u'd to bear with me cus i promise u this is gonna be a real long long entry... Soo yupps! X)
Tuesday, 07.03.06
Accompanied Jie to Lavender to collect he's passport. After which we were supposed to meet Sweetie and Wentao for a movie at Bugis. But silly Wentao came out with spot and in the end din wanna come out. -.-" and my sweetie was a lil piggy she woke up so so late....! So Jie and i went to bugis to meet Mei first.. Poor mei is sick.. very sick.. Hope that he's on the recovery.(Though he told me on Wednesday after the check-up that the doc says he's dying. -.-") After meeting up with mei david reached not long after. So we went to walk one rould at 'The Edge' then Jiewei reached.. Went to foodcourt to eat.. After that we walked to 'Si Ma Lu' to pray. Then Jiewei hadta go pick Verlin up from work. Left with me Jie & David. Met up with sweetie then we headed to town. David called da to meet us so we met da in town then it was dinner at Far East Long Johns. Jokes & craps throughout dinner was fun.. Heh.. Then Jie & David hadta go off. Left with the 3 lonely girls.. But! My dearest sweetest loveliest princess Amber called me up and we met up. Four of us went to the Starbucks beside California Fitness to chill out.. Hit it off so well the crazy us decided to go club at Zouk the next day.. Heh heh.... Hmmz, as Starbucks was closing, we went to Lido Mac, then from there we waited for da's bro to come pick us up. Initially we thought the next destination was: HOME. But nono da's brother made us go to punggol with he's friends for supper then he sent us back.. Totally shagged day out for me and a chui day out for my princess.. Hor Amber?? =pPp
Wednesday, 08.03.06
Slept till i had enough sleep then went out at night to meet da and sweetie in town. My sweetie's late AGAIN. lolx.. So da, amber, audrey and i waited for her to reach then off we went to zouk!! XD Baby and gang were going to zouk too.. Before we reached they were already inside.. Met many many in Zouk.. Okay larh actually not really many.. Lemme see.... Erms, Rose and Valerie. Eh? So few meh? Haha ook so its just two.. Din expect i would be meeting Baby.. But ended up i was practically with him the whole night.. Haha.. =x Oh yes drank flaming.. Was so scared at first cus it sounded so scary.. But it turned out fine larh.. =) Din really taste that horrible.. Just... mmm...*Shrugs* I dunno.. Lolz.. I love to club. Cus i get to enjoy those almost perfect and mostly my favourite blasting songs/ music and i get to drink.. But now that i dun drink, i just go there to enjoy the music.. Lolz.. And my crazy pretty friends will go wild and go dancing.. But i'll just be sitting there or standing there.. So the morale of the story is: Never go clubbing with Rin cus i can 101% assure you it is god damn farking boring..... Oh yes and my mood wasnt there on that day.. So, sorry girls..
Went out of the club at 2+.. Was very very uberly xtremely hungry.. So prolly my hunger caused my headache. Plus, when im hungry, i get real irritated.. Baby told me he'll go out with me.. At that point in time i felt real glad and relieved that baby went to zouk and that he was with me.. While sitting outside waiting for the girls to come out Tony and dickson came out first.. then followed by Seng and Alicia, then Wei Kang and another girl i forgot her name.. =X Rose came out to find me once but that silly girl couldnt find me when she was out and she din call me either so she went back in to the club.. lolz.. Cute larh.. Hmmz, so when the club closed da and sweetie finally came out.. Went with Baby and gang to Upp Thomson to eat.. Initially my princess din wanna go cus she was very tired but i think audrey pulled her along with us.. Haha it was darn hilarious... After supper all of us split and went back home..
I wasnt in the mood the whole day ever since i came out of the house.. Amber says i would be fine when i reach zouk. I tot so too. But nahh... Still felt sucky.. Plus all the hunger and blah blah.. Made me feel even suckier... But it wasnt totally sucky larh.. I enjoyed the company.. At the bus-stop at Upp Thomson.. Dickson and Tony were facing me.. Tony did ask where were my smiles and laughter.. He said i wasnt myself.. I just shrugged and told em i dunno.. I was very touched by how dickson and tony was so concerned. As in they came closer and ask me,'What happen?' Esp Dickson. I often talk to him but never bout such serious stuff.. Tony was lyk he's usual self.. He went,"Who bully u again? Tell me... What happen to you?" Dickson oso ask what happen to me.. and why was i so sad... Soo sweet larh... Their concern certainly did make me feel better. I know myself. I am a person who is harsh on words but soft in the heart. Sometimes i love myself for that bcus it makes me very big hearted. It makes me forgive and forget and not bear grudges. But sometimes i hate myself for that for it makes me feel so vulnerable..
I swear i was pissed.. I swear i hated him for treating me that way... But just when he treats me so nice, lyk everything were back to the good old days, my words and reaction may seem cold. But in my heart, im smiling at he's silly actions and words lyk how i used to laugh at him.. We used to be so close... And he used to be so so nice to me... Ytd at the chalet i told Sweetie bout how i feel.. My contradicting feelings.. And she told me then let it be.. Understand that he's just like that and just let go of the unhappiness just lyk how i could.. I guess, she's right. Afterall, unhappiness makes one unhappy isnt it? Let it go, accept him for who he is.. No hatred, only love. This way, everything seems simple. Let ur thoughts not be complicated for life will seem so tough and hard then.. Yes, ive sorted it out. =) *Thanks sweetie... You made me come back to life.. I love uuu sooo sooo much! XD*
Thursday, 09.03.06
Slept till i had enough slp AGAIN.. hahaha.. Aint Holidays just so wonderful? Lolx.. Went out in the evening to meet Sweetie cus we were heading to Jie's chalet.. (Psst!! Sweetieeeeee i've got sumting to tell u... I swear i really really hate her too larh!!!! ARGGHHHHHH >=|) Erms yupps, basically we just slacked at the chalet.. Sweetie and i chatted bout some stuffs... Actually its quite nice to just not do anything and sit down and talk.. Yeah so we ate... Then just chatted.. Sweetie left first cus she went out with her friend.. *Sobs* But its ookay, im not working.. So we have plenty plenty of time to meet up again.. Hiak Hiak.. X) After Sweetie left Jie was lyk kinda high... So i accompanied him to the room with he's almost gone friend to rest.. Sat beside Jie and watch him rest.. While doing so, my loveliest ah seah msged me.. Hmmz, she's darn sad bout her results for her mid-term... But dun worry ah seah... i know u have studied.. I know u have put in your effort.. Sometimes, in life, things dun just go ur way... But as long as u persevere and work hard, u'll achieve what you ought to.. Bcus u deserve it! =)
Yupps, so I talked to Jie.. Bout how i dun understand the way that Baby's treating me.. As in he has been recently really really nice to me.. And i mean it. Really nice. I thought it would be just a few days thing again ever since out major quarrel but no it has all along been that way... Before that, its the on off hot and cold shoulder.. Jie told me something that wisen me up lyk how my sweetie did on my friendship dilemma.. Jie told me,"Look at it this way. If he treats u very good throughout, you will expect more. Then, Roland would be in a more and more difficult position. If he treats you sometimes good and sometimes not, its only temporary. He will care for you. Like now, when he treats you very good, arent u feeling very happy? In this way, isnt this better?" It makes sense. Jie's right... Maybe that is why we have been together for almost a year and still going so strong.. Hmmm, my thinking all this while might have been a lil too selfish.. We cant have the best of both worlds.. Thus, in life, 'compromise' and 'accomodate' exists...
Ookay so David's sister's bf gave me a lift home ytd from the chalet.. In he's Subaru.. *Gasp!* Yes Subaru... My Dream car... And Oh My Gosh.... Sitting he's car is worst then the 'Back-then 180 degree turn that matthew did at Marina'.. He drives lyk so so soooo fast larh!! And during turns, brakes aint applied kae.. Not even engine break cus u can hear the tyres screech and everyone in the car will just swerrrvvveeeeeee..... and u just have to hold on really really tight.. On straight road... A Normal person's head in the car would be lyk this: '|' right? Meaning straight. But he drives so fast, the impact is so god damn fucking fast that ur head would be lydat: '/' lyk the impact will push ur body backwards... Whoa! This one CFM gao lat! Imagine i left the chalet at Pasir Ris at 2am, and at 2.10am i was already at my house downstairs. Wthh..... Im glad im still alive and kicking.. =X
Friday, 10.03.06
Today, accompanied Baby's sister for her check-up at National Eye Center.. Wentao called me up when i was there.. Told me to tell Baby to go to Sebas's place tmr for buffet and ask me along too.. But nahh.... Dun think i'll be going.. Dun really know Sebas at all it would be.. hmm... funny.. =x Yupps, so after the check-up, baby's brother sent me to Kriston to take pay.. Met ah bin and Qian Feng.. Soo happy to see Bin.. Been real long since i last saw him.. Missed him.. Heh.. =D (Psst: I think sometimes, being together with someone will change someone isnt it? *Shrugs* Wierd.. Or rather, disgusting. =x) After that Baby, he's brother and sister and i went to Joo Seng market to eat.. Received my results through sms.. Thank god i passed all.. Was so happy.. Otherwise i think i wouldnt even have the appetite to eat.. hahaz.. 4Bs, 2C+, 1D+.. Though no As and with 1D, im still happy. Heh... =D
After that went back to baby's place.. Was so tired i took a nap.. from 5+ till lyk 8.. Totally knock-out.. All thanks to Baby.. Ytd night Squeeze me till im in between the wall and him then i cant sleep properly.. Hmph.. Baby cooked maggi mee for me for dinner then i went home by myself.. been long since i went home alone cus usually he's brother would send me back.. But nah, just felt lyk going home alone today..
In the train, the green man kept smiling at me.. And he told me my sms tone is very cute.. (Sweetie! Its the smurf that goodnight song u sent me ytd.. haha!!) Then in the bus, this girl sitting in front of me was using Baby's mummy's perfume that last tym baby always take and use.. That sweet lingering floral fragrance made me sense baby's presence.. Made me think of our past.. Happy times.. Honey moon period, he's pasir ris house, the night that da and i put over at he's place, and the day that he cooked pasta for us, fishing for prawns, work at amara.. Everything... It made me miss baby.. Though i knew i just left him lyk less than 30mins ago.. Its quite an irony..
6years ago, i wouldnt care about the guy that im with.. I wouldnt even bother bout the day we got together, thus no anniversaries.. I wouldnt even bother meeting up.. I would just go and have fun with my friends... Prolly i was still young then..
3years ago, i started to take relationship more seriously.. But i never fail to get sick of em.. I never ever could see our future... Which you can also say, cant see how are we gonna last.. Thus, it all end one fine day.
Tuesday, 07.03.06
Accompanied Jie to Lavender to collect he's passport. After which we were supposed to meet Sweetie and Wentao for a movie at Bugis. But silly Wentao came out with spot and in the end din wanna come out. -.-" and my sweetie was a lil piggy she woke up so so late....! So Jie and i went to bugis to meet Mei first.. Poor mei is sick.. very sick.. Hope that he's on the recovery.(Though he told me on Wednesday after the check-up that the doc says he's dying. -.-") After meeting up with mei david reached not long after. So we went to walk one rould at 'The Edge' then Jiewei reached.. Went to foodcourt to eat.. After that we walked to 'Si Ma Lu' to pray. Then Jiewei hadta go pick Verlin up from work. Left with me Jie & David. Met up with sweetie then we headed to town. David called da to meet us so we met da in town then it was dinner at Far East Long Johns. Jokes & craps throughout dinner was fun.. Heh.. Then Jie & David hadta go off. Left with the 3 lonely girls.. But! My dearest sweetest loveliest princess Amber called me up and we met up. Four of us went to the Starbucks beside California Fitness to chill out.. Hit it off so well the crazy us decided to go club at Zouk the next day.. Heh heh.... Hmmz, as Starbucks was closing, we went to Lido Mac, then from there we waited for da's bro to come pick us up. Initially we thought the next destination was: HOME. But nono da's brother made us go to punggol with he's friends for supper then he sent us back.. Totally shagged day out for me and a chui day out for my princess.. Hor Amber?? =pPp
Wednesday, 08.03.06
Slept till i had enough sleep then went out at night to meet da and sweetie in town. My sweetie's late AGAIN. lolx.. So da, amber, audrey and i waited for her to reach then off we went to zouk!! XD Baby and gang were going to zouk too.. Before we reached they were already inside.. Met many many in Zouk.. Okay larh actually not really many.. Lemme see.... Erms, Rose and Valerie. Eh? So few meh? Haha ook so its just two.. Din expect i would be meeting Baby.. But ended up i was practically with him the whole night.. Haha.. =x Oh yes drank flaming.. Was so scared at first cus it sounded so scary.. But it turned out fine larh.. =) Din really taste that horrible.. Just... mmm...*Shrugs* I dunno.. Lolz.. I love to club. Cus i get to enjoy those almost perfect and mostly my favourite blasting songs/ music and i get to drink.. But now that i dun drink, i just go there to enjoy the music.. Lolz.. And my crazy pretty friends will go wild and go dancing.. But i'll just be sitting there or standing there.. So the morale of the story is: Never go clubbing with Rin cus i can 101% assure you it is god damn farking boring..... Oh yes and my mood wasnt there on that day.. So, sorry girls..
Went out of the club at 2+.. Was very very uberly xtremely hungry.. So prolly my hunger caused my headache. Plus, when im hungry, i get real irritated.. Baby told me he'll go out with me.. At that point in time i felt real glad and relieved that baby went to zouk and that he was with me.. While sitting outside waiting for the girls to come out Tony and dickson came out first.. then followed by Seng and Alicia, then Wei Kang and another girl i forgot her name.. =X Rose came out to find me once but that silly girl couldnt find me when she was out and she din call me either so she went back in to the club.. lolz.. Cute larh.. Hmmz, so when the club closed da and sweetie finally came out.. Went with Baby and gang to Upp Thomson to eat.. Initially my princess din wanna go cus she was very tired but i think audrey pulled her along with us.. Haha it was darn hilarious... After supper all of us split and went back home..
I wasnt in the mood the whole day ever since i came out of the house.. Amber says i would be fine when i reach zouk. I tot so too. But nahh... Still felt sucky.. Plus all the hunger and blah blah.. Made me feel even suckier... But it wasnt totally sucky larh.. I enjoyed the company.. At the bus-stop at Upp Thomson.. Dickson and Tony were facing me.. Tony did ask where were my smiles and laughter.. He said i wasnt myself.. I just shrugged and told em i dunno.. I was very touched by how dickson and tony was so concerned. As in they came closer and ask me,'What happen?' Esp Dickson. I often talk to him but never bout such serious stuff.. Tony was lyk he's usual self.. He went,"Who bully u again? Tell me... What happen to you?" Dickson oso ask what happen to me.. and why was i so sad... Soo sweet larh... Their concern certainly did make me feel better. I know myself. I am a person who is harsh on words but soft in the heart. Sometimes i love myself for that bcus it makes me very big hearted. It makes me forgive and forget and not bear grudges. But sometimes i hate myself for that for it makes me feel so vulnerable..
I swear i was pissed.. I swear i hated him for treating me that way... But just when he treats me so nice, lyk everything were back to the good old days, my words and reaction may seem cold. But in my heart, im smiling at he's silly actions and words lyk how i used to laugh at him.. We used to be so close... And he used to be so so nice to me... Ytd at the chalet i told Sweetie bout how i feel.. My contradicting feelings.. And she told me then let it be.. Understand that he's just like that and just let go of the unhappiness just lyk how i could.. I guess, she's right. Afterall, unhappiness makes one unhappy isnt it? Let it go, accept him for who he is.. No hatred, only love. This way, everything seems simple. Let ur thoughts not be complicated for life will seem so tough and hard then.. Yes, ive sorted it out. =) *Thanks sweetie... You made me come back to life.. I love uuu sooo sooo much! XD*
Thursday, 09.03.06
Slept till i had enough slp AGAIN.. hahaha.. Aint Holidays just so wonderful? Lolx.. Went out in the evening to meet Sweetie cus we were heading to Jie's chalet.. (Psst!! Sweetieeeeee i've got sumting to tell u... I swear i really really hate her too larh!!!! ARGGHHHHHH >=|) Erms yupps, basically we just slacked at the chalet.. Sweetie and i chatted bout some stuffs... Actually its quite nice to just not do anything and sit down and talk.. Yeah so we ate... Then just chatted.. Sweetie left first cus she went out with her friend.. *Sobs* But its ookay, im not working.. So we have plenty plenty of time to meet up again.. Hiak Hiak.. X) After Sweetie left Jie was lyk kinda high... So i accompanied him to the room with he's almost gone friend to rest.. Sat beside Jie and watch him rest.. While doing so, my loveliest ah seah msged me.. Hmmz, she's darn sad bout her results for her mid-term... But dun worry ah seah... i know u have studied.. I know u have put in your effort.. Sometimes, in life, things dun just go ur way... But as long as u persevere and work hard, u'll achieve what you ought to.. Bcus u deserve it! =)
Yupps, so I talked to Jie.. Bout how i dun understand the way that Baby's treating me.. As in he has been recently really really nice to me.. And i mean it. Really nice. I thought it would be just a few days thing again ever since out major quarrel but no it has all along been that way... Before that, its the on off hot and cold shoulder.. Jie told me something that wisen me up lyk how my sweetie did on my friendship dilemma.. Jie told me,"Look at it this way. If he treats u very good throughout, you will expect more. Then, Roland would be in a more and more difficult position. If he treats you sometimes good and sometimes not, its only temporary. He will care for you. Like now, when he treats you very good, arent u feeling very happy? In this way, isnt this better?" It makes sense. Jie's right... Maybe that is why we have been together for almost a year and still going so strong.. Hmmm, my thinking all this while might have been a lil too selfish.. We cant have the best of both worlds.. Thus, in life, 'compromise' and 'accomodate' exists...
Ookay so David's sister's bf gave me a lift home ytd from the chalet.. In he's Subaru.. *Gasp!* Yes Subaru... My Dream car... And Oh My Gosh.... Sitting he's car is worst then the 'Back-then 180 degree turn that matthew did at Marina'.. He drives lyk so so soooo fast larh!! And during turns, brakes aint applied kae.. Not even engine break cus u can hear the tyres screech and everyone in the car will just swerrrvvveeeeeee..... and u just have to hold on really really tight.. On straight road... A Normal person's head in the car would be lyk this: '|' right? Meaning straight. But he drives so fast, the impact is so god damn fucking fast that ur head would be lydat: '/' lyk the impact will push ur body backwards... Whoa! This one CFM gao lat! Imagine i left the chalet at Pasir Ris at 2am, and at 2.10am i was already at my house downstairs. Wthh..... Im glad im still alive and kicking.. =X
Friday, 10.03.06
Today, accompanied Baby's sister for her check-up at National Eye Center.. Wentao called me up when i was there.. Told me to tell Baby to go to Sebas's place tmr for buffet and ask me along too.. But nahh.... Dun think i'll be going.. Dun really know Sebas at all it would be.. hmm... funny.. =x Yupps, so after the check-up, baby's brother sent me to Kriston to take pay.. Met ah bin and Qian Feng.. Soo happy to see Bin.. Been real long since i last saw him.. Missed him.. Heh.. =D (Psst: I think sometimes, being together with someone will change someone isnt it? *Shrugs* Wierd.. Or rather, disgusting. =x) After that Baby, he's brother and sister and i went to Joo Seng market to eat.. Received my results through sms.. Thank god i passed all.. Was so happy.. Otherwise i think i wouldnt even have the appetite to eat.. hahaz.. 4Bs, 2C+, 1D+.. Though no As and with 1D, im still happy. Heh... =D
After that went back to baby's place.. Was so tired i took a nap.. from 5+ till lyk 8.. Totally knock-out.. All thanks to Baby.. Ytd night Squeeze me till im in between the wall and him then i cant sleep properly.. Hmph.. Baby cooked maggi mee for me for dinner then i went home by myself.. been long since i went home alone cus usually he's brother would send me back.. But nah, just felt lyk going home alone today..
In the train, the green man kept smiling at me.. And he told me my sms tone is very cute.. (Sweetie! Its the smurf that goodnight song u sent me ytd.. haha!!) Then in the bus, this girl sitting in front of me was using Baby's mummy's perfume that last tym baby always take and use.. That sweet lingering floral fragrance made me sense baby's presence.. Made me think of our past.. Happy times.. Honey moon period, he's pasir ris house, the night that da and i put over at he's place, and the day that he cooked pasta for us, fishing for prawns, work at amara.. Everything... It made me miss baby.. Though i knew i just left him lyk less than 30mins ago.. Its quite an irony..
6years ago, i wouldnt care about the guy that im with.. I wouldnt even bother bout the day we got together, thus no anniversaries.. I wouldnt even bother meeting up.. I would just go and have fun with my friends... Prolly i was still young then..
3years ago, i started to take relationship more seriously.. But i never fail to get sick of em.. I never ever could see our future... Which you can also say, cant see how are we gonna last.. Thus, it all end one fine day.
But 1 year ago, i met one guy. The moment i fell for him, i knew he was my Prince Charming..
*Never one day i got sick of him...
*Every single day i think of him the moment i wake up and the moment just before i fall asleep..
*Every single day i long to receive he's calls and smses... Just a simple 'muacks' or 'i love you' over the phone every night leaves me smiling to sleep..
*Seeing him tired makes me tired..
*Seeing him sad makes me frustrated..
*Seeing him happy makes me even happier..
*I love the way he plant a goodnight kiss on my forehead & whisper "good night" into my ear before i sleep when i sleep with him..
*I love the way he hug me into he's arms lyk he's babygirl before we sleep and the moment we wake up..
*I love the way he sit behind me and make me lie on he's body, arms wrapped around my shoulder and watching tv together..
*I love the way he comb my hair so gently..
*I love the way he tease me..
*I love to hear him tell me how irritating my face looked but you know he dun mean it.
*I love to see the look on he's face when he's cooking..
Basically i love every single thing about him.. He change my life.. He added many many colours in my life.. He changed me. To be a better person. I know he trust me alot. I know he love me alot. I know he needs me. And i know i need him too. I see our future. He sees it too. We see our future together. We see ourselves walking down the red carpet hand in hand, setting up our very own family with our own kids...
" I think, i finally know what true love is and ive found it..."
*Never one day i got sick of him...
*Every single day i think of him the moment i wake up and the moment just before i fall asleep..
*Every single day i long to receive he's calls and smses... Just a simple 'muacks' or 'i love you' over the phone every night leaves me smiling to sleep..
*Seeing him tired makes me tired..
*Seeing him sad makes me frustrated..
*Seeing him happy makes me even happier..
*I love the way he plant a goodnight kiss on my forehead & whisper "good night" into my ear before i sleep when i sleep with him..
*I love the way he hug me into he's arms lyk he's babygirl before we sleep and the moment we wake up..
*I love the way he sit behind me and make me lie on he's body, arms wrapped around my shoulder and watching tv together..
*I love the way he comb my hair so gently..
*I love the way he tease me..
*I love to hear him tell me how irritating my face looked but you know he dun mean it.
*I love to see the look on he's face when he's cooking..
Basically i love every single thing about him.. He change my life.. He added many many colours in my life.. He changed me. To be a better person. I know he trust me alot. I know he love me alot. I know he needs me. And i know i need him too. I see our future. He sees it too. We see our future together. We see ourselves walking down the red carpet hand in hand, setting up our very own family with our own kids...
" I think, i finally know what true love is and ive found it..."
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