Weekend was pretty well-spent and well-lived. Ha. I have totally no idea are there such descriptions but oh well.. Hmm, have been into gaming, exercising, and reading, all of which requires no cash. Still, its rather close to impossible not to leave the house for the whole time being unemployed. Therefore, you will never even smell success coming near you with only output without input.
I wonder if anyone is like me; Feeling uncertain of what you want in life, feeling insecure with the decisions that you made or are going to make. Not furthering my studies right now, I hope, is the best solution. For now at least. Not pursuing what I have just mugged and slacked for the whole of past 3yrs. Is this right or not? Is life like this? The sentence that's so often coming from one's mouth: "Life's unfair." "Life/Love is selfish." Are these commonly used phrases a mere stereotype outta one's agony, despair or in one's state of helplessness, or are these phrases formed to depict the true facts of life?
If I were to pursue what I thought I wanted to do 3yrs ago, sacrifices are to be made. Its such an irony that I'm certain, more than anything else in my life right now, that should one climb up high, sacrifices are bound to be made and this goes without saying. Yet, I don't see myself willing to give that foolish lil sacrifice to make it right up there, yet I'm so determined to go all way out, to strive for the highest peak in my life. Silly isnt it? You may think so. But look at it this way, prolly I cant see myself doing that because I just can't do that and it's just not meant to be. Then again, these may be nothing but a facade of excuses. Coming this far, each and everyone of us, both you and me, have made countless of decisions. And this means making decisions every hour, every minute and every second. You prolly just decided to get ur favourite top from gap this afternoon. You prolly decided to skip dinner and sleep all day till tmr. You prolly decided to stop reading my entry right now. You prolly decided to tag me after reading this entry. Well, these are decisions made. And with these decisions made, there tend to be wrong moves, still, life goes on. A prison officer Soh Chi Yiong shared,"Mum said life is like a game of chess. Sometimes, you make the wrong move, but that doesn't mean your life is over. You just pick yourself up and start again." Whether or not it will be a wrong decision, I will have to make a decision one day. Soon. I know that no matter what decision I make, people who love me will support me, whether or not the decision made was a right or wrong one. My dad, is one, who has never once failed, to be there for me, to support me in every way that I wanted to pursue, to do, or to go for no matter what, no matter how, no matter where. In daddy's way, he tells me all the harsh consequences of my desired decision. He says all negative yet never the positive. To others, they may see that he's mainly demoralizing me, objecting, and never receptive to ideas or decisions. But only I know, that only for those whom daddy love and care, will he be harsh to.... Mike daddy told me,"Bear in mind, that with every decision YOU make, YOU will have to face the consequences... But girl, whatever decisions that you make, daddy will definitely support you."
Calvin said that if the little sacrifice that I have to make is so hard, he's willing to do anything he can just to make me feel better.
It doesnt really matter to me, whether I've known you for 6 day, 6 weeks, 6 months, or even 6 years.... But mike daddy and calvin brother, I'm really grateful for all the listening ears that you gave me, for all the advices that were given.
Today, met up with twinny raine and dearest France Seng... Despite being a short meet-up, it was a two thumbs up meet-up.. Thanks twin for accompanying me to cut my fringe... ;)
And to France:
- I was really really very very VERY touched when you told me you saw the Navy fair and that you wanted to pass me whatever stuff regarding their various openings... It made me realise that you cared in your every own way, based on the fact that you even thought of me when you saw the SAF Navy thingy.... X)
- Secondly, I STILL can't forget the 'Oven' and the 'Bao' practical description. It was seriously hilarious man.. Hahaha! ;)
- Thirdly, thank you thank you thank youuu for wandering the whole of CP with me just to think of my 'Ti-tu' and all the memorable moments such as the adorable lil piggy bank, looking at career guide at popular, the horoscope guide for us Rabbits! etc etc etc... I hope u were not late for meeting Joseph. Please tell him I'm sorry I occupied he's girl late! =p
- PS: Tmr night onwards, there's gonna be the new show 'Making Miracles'.. If we watch it, we will wanna be doctors next.. LOL!!! XD
- Italy LOVES France! =D
Oh yah! I wanted to share with my little blog readers on the show 'The Guardian'. It was shown in the theatres sometime back and I happen to watch the DVD at baby Rolly's place yesterday. It's a really good show... Its funny, highly attention-grabbing, inspirational and touching. One of the good jokes in the show, I thought, was the part when Ashton Kutcher (Jake Fischer) had this number '2' tatoo-ed on the top right of he's back and he's girl was asking him whats with the '2' and he said,"So that the fellow behind me would always know what position is he in." *Gosh* Who on earth can be this cool? He's cute. And in the show, he's really snobby but because he really has the capabilities. I had no idea what this show was all about because the disc was burned (in other words, not the real DVD.) and had no pictures and nothing. Yet, it was somehow coincidentally linked to one of the major decisions in life. It really inspired me to be really firm and determined in whichever decisions I make, in every tough obstacles that I face. I hope that by sharing this, it would help make an impact in your life, just like how it did in mine.
"Oorah!" ;)
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