♥, *Rin

Day 311
The aftermath of Confessions of a girl to the pretty Nun


Today, my O2 was supposed to wake me up. Unfortunately, it didn't come in handy because darling baby jan woke me up bout 10mins earlier than the desired time. Just nice! Girlie was extremely sweet to come all the way down to my place to give me my 46.50. Haha. Thank u jan.....! And of course, indirectly thanks to zm. >=)


So after parting, I went for my morning jog as usual, then went online as Jan & I agreed to meet online to do some catching up after my jog. Hmm, so, updated Jan with the recent happenings... And Jan gave me so much of her opinions and advices.. All of which, were so rational, encouraging and EXTREMELY heart-warming... X) Lessons learnt from my girlie's advices:

Lessons taught for 'Case 1' from Girlie:

Some faggots just happen to be a passer-by in my life. Without the effort, it goes to show how much of sincerity is given from that person. The fact the he can contact someone else instead of me, there are 3 possible reasons. Which, I think, I shall not disclose it in public. Afterall, it aint that nice to hang our dirty laundry in public. Rii-ght. Girlie thinks that I should simply get over it and move on. 10years down the road when we look back, we will see that these are mainly lame shits. (This is added on from me though. =x) And lastly, girlie thinks that some faggots are not even an inch worth to get close to me. As time goes by, things will surely get better. :))

Morale of the lesson:
Yes Jan, I see a clearer picture in mind. I know clearly what I need to do or rather what I SHOULD do and think. You're right that I shouldn't even go into getting pissed. Yea. One, pointless. Two, he's of ABSOLUTELY of irrelation to me. So. Yea to hell faggots go........ >=)

Lessons taught for 'Case 2' from Girlie:

As every other individual would have said the exact same thing, the fact that baby rolly gets upset and blown up shows that he cares and he's jealous. It's just that he doesn't know how to react (Jan u really know him so well man. this is BINGO.) and its very very natural to come along. For instance if rolly were to go out with a girl, girlie thinks that I would probably get a tingling feeling inside me no matter how much i trust him. (come to think of it, yeah so true. Sometimes it's just not all bout trust.) Girlie went on to explain that these all come under a part of 'insecurity' considering that both rolly & I are good looking. =x

searching. says:
u and him have come so long tgt

and both of u are players of the field in love

to be able to walk so far

both of u definitely have have special connection

just that things get boring

but which r/s doesn't after some time

it's sometimes time to treasure

furthermore he takes the "effort" however little it is to make up w u

says he isn't wanting to give up yet

i just feel that he's for u

i dunno y

haha

And so much more that girlie said so that I can be a better gf. So much more than girlie told me to change such that I wouldn't take things for granted because that's how we as human beings often do and treat that someone whom we've been together for a long time by displaying all our emotions.

The whole idea of catching up, the whole sharing of woes and feelings, the unfolding of hidden chapters of pain and misery deep down in my heart...... And to know that someone close to you there understands totally why you're feeling that way. And this same person has actually gone through almost the same kind of situations and overcome-d it eventually...... It feels really good. It feels like you really ain't alone. And it feels way better to know that this person is you. Yes Jan, you... No way I'm wrong about that.

You know Jan, I feel like I've really known the true you today. You are, to me, a changed girl. No no changed is not the word. Let me re-phrase that. Grown up? Yea. No longer the baby among us..... X) Then again, maybe it's because this is the first time you helped me with my problems. All these while, like you said, maybe some people are just scared of me because I'm a more dominant person, but for your, (i supposed u mean sisterhood), you've all understood what kinda person I am so it's ok. So, like you say, I've always been the dominant one, prolly the seemingly can-solve-any-every-single-problem-of-hers-without-fail girl. But today, you see me with all these shit which I would have easily settled it off once and for all in the past but apparently this time round seems to be of an exception. I think I've lost the strong soul in me after all the soft soul brought in to teach the little kids..... Haha. =X Damn I need to get my soul back. Anyway, yeah I do not know if it's because today, u've seen the submissive side of the dominant me or it seems, you are opening up to me more and more, much more than before.

In the past, you portray to me, someone whom have no comments for anything and everything, things come and go, happy-go-lucky. But today, I realised this isn't the case. You prolly have your pain and opinions, but u kept it all within you.........(Which I really don't wish to see that) If you do need anything, my whole time is for you.... You know that don't you? OF course, then Jan I know today is more clear of what she wants in life and is standing strong on that. I am so sooo proud and happy for you girlie... There's so much more that I want to say, but all of a sudden its so much I cant seem to link up my chain of thoughts orderly and I cant seem to be able to put it all down in words..... Whatever it is, Jan, I just wanna let you know that I do really love you, and its too much, more than what meets the eye, that it cannot be deciphered simply using this 3 words.


PS: You will always be my sexy nun with b***s..... *wink wink* ;)



So. After all the chatting, got myself prepared to meet Baby at Tampines Mall. Caught 'Stomp the Yard'. Very very nice show! 2 thumbs up! Infatuated with Brian White.

He is, I repeat.
Very very very very VERY handsome!

For those who haven watch the show, you are being encouraged by me here to go watch it! X) If you're one who loves the movie 'Step up', I'm sure you'll enjoy this too. :)) 'Cus I love both shows......... XD

"Eh! Can u please take one that can see my hair?"
=X

So, nah. There you go burnt-like-lobster vainboy!
tsk.

HE!
Peeped and copied my face!
Hrmph.

Love you, you:
Irritating, sunburnt, fatty fat, hot-tempered, especially-handsome-today, sometimes-cute
boyfriend of mine!