♥, *Rin

My diary is rusting away..

Anyway, my current mood is : FOUL
Too many many things pissing me off. On top of that, I think I'm pms-ing. Why do girls have PMS? I never liked the consequences of PMS-es, but it's not like I can help it, it just HAPPENS. Sometimes people tell me: Why don't you try to control? My boyfriend once told me that pms can be overcomed. Bcus "someone" never used to have pms because she lets her mind control it instead of let the pms control her. Yea IF only I could do that. Why do people always question us as if we WANT to be pmsey? Hello guys? It makes ourselves unhappy. Who on earth likes to be unhappy? aargh whatever~ See. I SAID i was in a foul mood.


Ookay. I still can't get over yesterday. Actually I did get over it, (I think) but it came back this morning after I received a sms that put me in a helpless situation AGAIN.
Did I mention I like to be decisive? As in, I'm a person who creates the path infront of me to walk on. I decide my future, I decide what I want, I decide my actions and the consequences. In short, I am the mastermind of my mind body & soul. That's why when objects of hindrance comes into my path, I get bloody annoyed and frustrated. See, if there was a justifiable reason for why you are getting in my way, I would take it. BUT! No?!
Simply because I don't see your effing point. It's what I want, I pay for it. I take responsibility for it. Not like I'm asking you to fork out a single cent. You go around telling everyone how proud you are of me because I am one who's extremely financial sensitive (totally the opposite from my brother), a girl who is wise and never spends extravagantly. The girl who never runs out of cash and no matter how low my own pay a month may get, I would still give you the same sum of money every month. Yes I do that, so much so I'm leaving myself with less than 100 to spend for that month at times. But I never once uttered a word, because I did it willingly. I am willing to sacrifice myself so long as you benefit from it. So? What exactly IS your problem? I manage my own financial stability. I know when I can afford and when I can't. & it's not like I'm asking you to subsidise when I can't afford. Moreover, whatever that I am planning to do isn't illegal or anything along that line. SO WHAT?!! Come on! Give me a break~


Taillamp. Leave this out, I didn't know it wasn't approved till recently. Plus, your silence tells me you are extremely satisfied with it as well because I KNOW you like cars too. Just that you prolly ain't that young to go as crazy as weiliang ko ko, kenneth, & I.

Eagle eye. Ok, I may not say it. But god knows how much I love that. But it isn't LTA approved so I will never do it no matter what so as not to get into any unnecessary troubles or fines. Do you realise this? NO! It's Christmas. Half of the price slashed, going at 250 now. You think I don't want it? I want! You think I can't afford it? I can! But why am I not doing? I think I don't have to repeat myself.

Grill. You were away when I did it. Nevertheless, I seeked your permission first. I could simply do it without you. "Why ask" was what some asked me. Simple. Respect. Because rightfully it belongs to you. Any changes to it I would think it's fair you should be in the loop.

Lower down & Exhaust. Exactly what weiliang ko ko did. I'm dying to do it. But because you have violent objections against these 2, I have never even thought of doing it. Please, if I were to get it done without telling you first, what could you have done? Let me answer for you: LL suck thumb.


I have never been a rebellious girl in your eyes. But just so you know, I've got enough of your what they call "double standard" in the working society. Since your attitude, behaviour & thinking varies according to your mood or god knows what? Let's have a taste of what I'm capable of doing.