Xuan came over and brought my dad and I two cups of her bubble tea.. Super yummy! & after much complaining and screaming and shouting and kicking-- my dad FINALLY agreed to go for a simple dinner with xuan and I @ Jalan Kayu. He was repeating himself non-stop that he wasn't hungry at all. But still, it was a special day yesterday you SEE... =D
So after dinner cum supper which was about 12+ already, I dropped dad home and went off straight to Seah's granny's funeral @ AMK with Xuan. I told xuan not to call her because I wanted to give her a surprise. [[ I went MIA halfway in the day & wanted to surprise by popping by to pay her granny some respects ]] WHO KNOWS she just left when xuan & I reached... Aargghhh.... Spoilt MY PLANS.. So daddy seah actually called her to tell her that i was there and the next minute, my hp rang:
"EH! Ang eh! why u coming down u never tell me earlierrrrrr i just left you knowwww!! I was still thinking why erin mia the whole day...!" Hahaha~ =p
In the end ah seah wanted us to go over to her place.
So after xuan and i sat there chit chatting for awhile, eating the 'kuay ji' & the peanuts and the sweet and finishing the drink, we went to burn a joss stick and gave some 'bai jing' to her uncle and bid goodbye to daddy seah. The highlight of this visit [[The suicidal cum ghostly encounter]] seriously left me EXTREMELY freaked out the entire night!! I think xuan and I will NEVER EVER forget that. Right xuan xuan?! >.<
So anyway, as usual, tonnes of fun & laughter and sharing and talking non-stop @ seah's place all the way till bout 2am. Then I was tasked by mummy seah to send wei and he's friend back to the funeral. Thinking since I had to go back to AMK to send xuan home, I agreed. =)
Upon parking my car arnd 230 in the late quiet and cold night, then did I realise it has been sometime and rare since I came home late at night alone. When i'm back that late, there were only 2 possibilities.
One. To JB with my dad.
Two. Peng sending me home after wherever we went.
So I was hardly alone in the late night. & after the freaky suicidal cum ghostly encounter, I was really really damn scared all the way from the 3rd floor of the carpark till i reached my doorstep. Thinking that my dad was already asleep since he said he was going home to sleep after Jalan Kayu because he's very tired, I never thought of asking dad to come down and pick me up. Who knows when I stepped into the house, daddy was in the kitchen drinking water. O.O" neh neh... To think I almost died from the excessive pounding of my heart for say 3mins? *shakes head* Scary.
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A part of me was feeling very annoyed and disappointed despite having so much fun last night. Well, I chose to drown myself in happiness instead of anger and disappointment.
In the past, we sms each other throughout the day even though u're in camp. It's as if you have alot of free time to be able to reply my sms-es or even call me every now and then to check that I've taken my meals. It hasn't been the case recently since u've been posted to your new vocation in navy and I can totally understand that. I understand how tired it is for you to be managing your shift work. That is why no matter how much I want to see you because of the truckload of misses that I have for you, I never once demanded you to come and see me or spend more time with me at night. Instead, often, I tell you to head home and sleep straightaway otherwise you would be too tired. Let's not compare myself with other girlfriends who demands for this and that and are extremely sticky and wants to meet almost every other day.
Am I not being understanding enough?
I dropped you a text msg telling you that i am having a headache but you didn't reply me. But, i'm seriously ok with that. Of course, I had hoped to get a reply from you but it's not like you are out enjoying with your friends or something. You were doing your duty. That explains why I can totally understand that. You called me once you finished your work. I didnt answer because I was napping. When you reached home, you gave me a call again and I picked up. The first thing that you asked was," Why you never answer my call just now?" The explanation that you gave me on msn was "Girlfriend, I was busy." I wasn't even complaining about all the sms-es that you didn't reply. Yes you didn't reply my sms-es, but that I wouldn't make a fuss about since you were in camp and thinking that you are really busy. What about my shit pounding head? You didn't reply my sms to that even after you knocked off. I already close one eye. But not even asking about how am I when you called instead you were more worried to why I didnt pick up your call earlier on, gosh what do you expect me to say?
Am I being not accomodating enough?
All I wanted was a simple,"R you ok?".
Yes, that is how simple-minded a girl I am.
I do not need the riches and wealth, the glitz and glamours that others DIE TO YEARN FOR.
Yet, my simplistic wish wasn't even fulfilled.
I wouldn't say that my boyfriend do not care for me. Because I really know he cares.
But at times like this, am I wrong to be feeling unloved and uncared for?
Am I wrong to feel that my love isn't being reciprocated fully?
At least the basic courtesy of "I am really sorry." for having neglected & overlooked me was something which I expect. Yet, you didn't even apologise.
Not to mention apologise, you didn't even seem guilty or apologetic to have neglected your girlfriend.
Instead, the rest of the night you acted as if everything was okay, putting on a cheery front.
My replies to you were as cold as frozen ice.
The fact that I didn't even bother to drop you a text when I reached home yesterday was to show how unhappy I was.
Yet you gave no damn about it all and played along by not even dropping me a text when you woke up this morning.
Tell me. Am I pms-ing, or have you gone overboard this time?
You clear up this shit that you created.
Am I not being understanding enough?
I dropped you a text msg telling you that i am having a headache but you didn't reply me. But, i'm seriously ok with that. Of course, I had hoped to get a reply from you but it's not like you are out enjoying with your friends or something. You were doing your duty. That explains why I can totally understand that. You called me once you finished your work. I didnt answer because I was napping. When you reached home, you gave me a call again and I picked up. The first thing that you asked was," Why you never answer my call just now?" The explanation that you gave me on msn was "Girlfriend, I was busy." I wasn't even complaining about all the sms-es that you didn't reply. Yes you didn't reply my sms-es, but that I wouldn't make a fuss about since you were in camp and thinking that you are really busy. What about my shit pounding head? You didn't reply my sms to that even after you knocked off. I already close one eye. But not even asking about how am I when you called instead you were more worried to why I didnt pick up your call earlier on, gosh what do you expect me to say?
Am I being not accomodating enough?
All I wanted was a simple,"R you ok?".
Yes, that is how simple-minded a girl I am.
I do not need the riches and wealth, the glitz and glamours that others DIE TO YEARN FOR.
Yet, my simplistic wish wasn't even fulfilled.
I wouldn't say that my boyfriend do not care for me. Because I really know he cares.
But at times like this, am I wrong to be feeling unloved and uncared for?
Am I wrong to feel that my love isn't being reciprocated fully?
At least the basic courtesy of "I am really sorry." for having neglected & overlooked me was something which I expect. Yet, you didn't even apologise.
Not to mention apologise, you didn't even seem guilty or apologetic to have neglected your girlfriend.
Instead, the rest of the night you acted as if everything was okay, putting on a cheery front.
My replies to you were as cold as frozen ice.
The fact that I didn't even bother to drop you a text when I reached home yesterday was to show how unhappy I was.
Yet you gave no damn about it all and played along by not even dropping me a text when you woke up this morning.
Tell me. Am I pms-ing, or have you gone overboard this time?
You clear up this shit that you created.
Dont say you're sorry to me because it's too late for apologies now.
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