Hmm, I've been really busy lately with my new fulfilling life. Juggling work @ Starhub, tuition, school, at the same time not accommodating on QT with my boyfriend. I haven had any life lately with my friends, which is pretty sad yes. Other than xuan who goes to school with me & darling france seng who works with me -- laughing or cursing at customers. Though busy, but very fulfilling. Seriously. That's why they say, it's good to be busy, otherwise it ain't a good sign. Tiring and stressful as it might be, I'm enjoying the haste in the pace of my life. We are young and there are many things out there we need to do and learn.. So much so much to learn. Indeed, learning is a life long process.
Let's see many things happened. The only significant ones that I can remember are as follows:-
- One day after I tagged Rina in her blog, "Why don't I bump into you in school?", I really bumped into her after class at the bus-stop. yayness. =D
- After being boyfriend's "woman behind the successful man", I have concluded that boyfriend's right brain and left brain cannot co-ordinate. Woahhahaa. I threatened that I was gonna post all the evidences on the blog but it has been so long and I'm a bit lazy. Sooooo..... Boyfriend you escaped this time round! Ha!
- France Seng & I got Mr Goh as our common customer.
As I was saying, I made him wait a VERY LONG time due to all the checking yet he was not even the least annoyed instead when I kept apologising, he told me it was okay. Can you believe it?! Out of 10 customers just how many are like him?
I.... salute him. Really.
& then he called again couple of minutes later and this time round France took his call. He wanted to tell her that another line other than the one he had told me earlier was also affected. So after France, Azman & I discussed what to advice him, he told France, "Whoa we suffer alot..." In this low and depressed kinda voice which totally made France put him on mute and burst out laughing. Lol! Totally hilarious.
- I've decided to call off the last wish on my baby - TTE. Hmm, goods things doesn't come to make way for better things. >=) I'm not announcing anything to the public till I've gotten it. So far, only boyfriend, Xuan & France knows. As for the rest of you, bribe me I might consider. Haha! (But it's nothing super secretive or super glamourous, really.)
So that's about it. There's one last significant issue but I will leave that for my closure to this post.
Today's a Friday & I spent my whole afternoon practising my math, & reading my book. (: & I've got class to attend tomorrow morning. Yes, a Saturday. & henceforth, the reason why I'm at home now. Boyfriend is out meeting his friends while poor me am at home. Ok lah, I'm just kidding about the poor me part. No, boyfriend did not ditch me for his friends. I chose to be disciplined and to have an early night so that I can pay attend in lecture tomorrow (though I pay 101% attention in class whether I have enough sleep or not). Tee Hee. ((: My aunt & dad said I'm a good girl! *wink* ;p
Oh, the news earlier on was showing some drifting performances somewhere. Not too sure about the details though 'cus it was on Chn 8. Listening to mandarin news are tedious boy! =O Anyway, dad was calling me to watch the tv, that was when it was brought to my attention.
So I was telling daddy that Singapore has a very well known drifter (as enlightened by boyfriend quite some time ago) & I was also telling dad that this guy taught his friend who was driving a vios how to drift and the video was on You Tube or something. & guess what? Father actually asked me to look this guy up and get him to teach me how to drift. Woo Hoo. & Father added on, "With drifting skills then you can be entitled to join the F1." Because like I said years ago when F1 was known to be coming up in Singapore, "I wanna be Singapore's first female F1 racer." =DDD It's a pretty tough goal to achieve I think, but let me think it through and figure how do I get my foot on the first stepping stone.
Even if I fail, I fail in glory because the least I did was, to try.
Ookay coming to an end to my post, as promised, I was gonna touch on one of the significant incidences in my life.
In memory of Sean's granny..........
On Wednesday, Sean suddenly came into my mind. You know, the sort whereby someone just flashes through your mind and you go,"Oh yah? Wondering how he/she is doing..." Yeah so there.
& I was busy the entire day and before I went to bed arnd 3am, I text him, hoping that everything's going well on his end. Like both of us noticed, we don't usually contact each other often, and then we would just end up meeting up for lunch or dinner or coffee out of the blue just keeping in touch. & the average period would be 6mths. Whatever happened between the both of us in the past were already history. Right now, I would say that we are both on very good talking terms, we can just relate to each other and to me, he is a very good friend in my heart. I can like talk to him about everything and anything. He is a very nice person I must say. & I treasure this friendship of ours alot. Though all I do when I see or talk to him is to "suan" him and all and vice versa, but deep down, there are merely jokes and I'm sure he jolly well knows that. Okay enough of the friendship part.
I guess when something happens to your kin, loved ones or closest friends, you just can feel it. & I guess I did. So coincidentally when I checked on him - That afternoon, his granny left him. & his granny have been living with him for all his life. I remember his granny as a very friendly granny. Not every elderly would be friendly mind you. Take my own for example, her attitude towards people depends on her mood. Maybe probably also because my granny is a very outspoken person. She doesn't spare a thought bout anything and she simple pours everything out irregardless of anything.
When mentioned in the conversation between Sean & my dad, I could see his eyes glistening with sadness, with controlling tears. Though it may not be very obvious but being an observant person, I noticed. I felt a pang of pain through my heart. I'm sure if it were someone else and not Sean, I would have felt the same way. It's tearing of the heart apart when it comes to losing someone forever. & Sean is taking it well, so far. He's strong. & he needs to be strong. We all know life & death are just but part and parcel of life. We all might see the end to all pain and sufferings as a good thing. But in reality, it's hard to practice what we always preach. I know that. We all know that. Don't you?
I know Sean reads my blog.
& I know he might not even be seeing this till next week or so, but Sean if you ever read this, stay strong and be strong. Like I told you in my msg, I know whatever I say would not give you any solace; for the pain you are suffering and that emptiness in your heart is irreplaceable with words. & will never ever be possible. But I'm here, we are all here. Dear friends or colleagues of yours who truly love and care for you. & not forgetting, of course, the girl who will be by your side no matter how no matter when, your girlfriend. You are a treasured friend and it pains me to see you in pain. So, this is for you:
A life watered by the tears of tragedy and suffering Often becomes the most fertile soil for spiritual growth.
Dedicated to you, my dear friend, Sean.
You will overcome this.
Blog Song: Lin Jun Jie - Hui You Na Me Yi Tian
夕阳西下鸟儿回家
阿嬷躺在病床上
呼吸有一点散漫
眼神却很温柔
看著爷爷湿透的眼
握著他粗糙的手
阿嬷的泪水开始流
轻声说道:
我要离去别再哭泣
不要伤心请你相信我
要等待我的爱
陪你永不离开
因为会有那么一天
我们牵著手在草原
听鸟儿歌唱的声音
听我说声我爱你
Dedicated to you, my dear friend, Sean.
You will overcome this.
Blog Song: Lin Jun Jie - Hui You Na Me Yi Tian
夕阳西下鸟儿回家
阿嬷躺在病床上
呼吸有一点散漫
眼神却很温柔
看著爷爷湿透的眼
握著他粗糙的手
阿嬷的泪水开始流
轻声说道:
我要离去别再哭泣
不要伤心请你相信我
要等待我的爱
陪你永不离开
因为会有那么一天
我们牵著手在草原
听鸟儿歌唱的声音
听我说声我爱你
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