♥, *Rin

Who says being a student was easy?


Maybe this would have made sense if you were living in the Jurassic Park Era.
Or maybe you're a filthy rich punk simply living life off your wealthy parents.


Do note that I'm not trying to say that my dad is incapable of raising me up now. But I would rather be independent & realistic to learn it through the hard way that nothing in life comes easy and with hard work added with persistence and perseverance brings success. After all, I've been through more than anyone could have imagined. What's this to me?


Except that in tough times like this when body rules the mind, I fight a tough battle within myself. & it certainly doesn't help when loved ones bring me down further making me feel unappreciated at all times. What the hell.


Lifestyles and habits have been changed for a week. Things haven't been going well, or so, I thought. I expected lesser times. Yet I was given more than expected. & it's a good thing. Really. But think about this again. Meeting more yet talking less. Meeting more so causing misses and love to lessen to the minimum. So one tends not to give so much of a damn to the other. One neglects the other unknowingly. So is this a good thing or not? Maybe not huh?


Sometimes I really really, literally hate people who doesn't know the meaning of "A-P-P-R-E-C-I-A-T-E". These people really really truly gets to each & every nerves of my body. To err is human. Bloody selfish & ignorant. Really.
The loss of a valued brother woke me up from my world so "full-of-myself" & who didn't know the true meaning of treasure & cherish. Everyone knows the fact that people will not treasure till they've lost it. But do they really know the meaning and pain of it? & despite knowing, there ARE still people who's ignorant and taking everything for granted thinking they are always right and who cares more for themselves than their loved ones.


I learnt a very heart-wrenching lesson when my brother left. I treasured my friends more. I used to be the kind who think of my friends every now and then. Yet doing nothing about it. Now, I act on it. I learnt to make known and tell them that they are thought of. I make time and effort to organize meet ups. I just did one last Saturday with the girls. Another upcoming one this coming Wednesday with the boys. & randomly individual meet ups more to come.


Xav told me to discover my talent. I realised I found joy & excitement in organizing meet ups. Who knows, one fine day, I may set up my own party-planner/event organizing company. All thanks to the 2 great men/friends in my life. Clifton, who made me realise the importance of relationships be in kinship, friendship or bgr. & xav who drove me out of my desperation.


So anyway, back to my point. Everything in life is a two-way street. Don't you think so? At unappreciated and lonely times like this, I feel totally demoralized and lonely.

The song playing now on my itunes - Chi Xin Jue Dui is simply adding on to well up the tears in my eyes. Oh cmon Rin, you're stronger than this.



In a bad mood girly best? You're not alone..