You know how I seldom look into people's profile, check out their photos & stuff.
Only recently, learnt how to make better use of my account.
Decided to click on Eileen's profile. Her status update of missing her long hair aroused my curiosity & yes, in another sense, "kaypo-ness". Cause I chopped my hair off too & would love to see others sporting the same look, or something.
That curiosity led to welling of my tears very abruptly.
I was still happily listening to Rui En's 'Man Wu' when I saw him. For a moment I stared at his cheery face. That cheery wide & warm smile so familiarly and significantly his.. Why, I haven seen that for such a long long time..... & I'm afraid I'll never see that again.
You know, I really hate myself. Call ourselves a family. I can't even remember when was the last time I met you. Wait. No. Tell me it wasn't graduation. Gosh. & I was stupidly foolishly thinking there would be a reunion on my 21st birthday party. How naive.
& this foolishness cost me regret for the rest of my life. Very painful lesson learnt.
So the pain actually still lingers so much.. I never knew..
"I'm sorry."
No comments:
Post a Comment