Hello 2010!

Happy New Year to Everybardy... ;)

2009 has ended.

People whom I've had conflicts or misunderstandings with has all been resolved.
Am satisfied with this aspect.

Whoever who offended me in any way or another, whether you know it or not that I'm pissed with you, you jolly well know who you are if you ever badmouth-ed me for no god damn reason & without any feelings of empathy. I forgive you.

I'm leaving all hatred behind. Moving on to a new year, living my life all over again.
Am too tired to shoulder all these negative feelings. I have too many other stuffs to worry about.


From today onwards, I'm living life my own way.
I no longer want to be the Rin who keeps quiet acting like I'm a goodie good girl giving in to all.
I no longer want to be the Rin whose so vulnerable to everything.
I want to be strong and independent.
Though I'm resigned to fate for my love life;
Because I realised, the harder I took things, the harder I fall.
Maybe, without any expectations, comes no disappointments.


Some things that are worth fighting for, I will go for it. All way out.
Otherwise, I'm leaving it behind.

People who cherish me, thank you. I cherish and appreciate ya all too. Sincerely.

People who don't, perhaps it was all 有緣無份.

For me, the last lap of 2009 was a rocky one. Days where I got myself drunk. Days where I cried like there was no tomorrow. Nights of sleep with my face in tears. Days awaken with swollen eyes. Nightmares from same old haunt. It was a painful Dec 09. There were no doubt days I found life hard to go on.. No, I did not attempt to give up my life. But I lost my sense of direction totally. Special thanks to Jorin, Xuan, Jan, & a few of my new BL brothers Ah Jie, Mike... Without them, I would never have made it through... :)


Of course, without the special one, all these would never have made it.
I really don't know if this time round, things will work out just right finally after 2.5years of building our ("v"), but I guess, this is gonna be my one last try.. I will put in my all like how I've always did, perhaps even more and better. I will change my ways which doesn't please him.. I will play my part and do all I can to sustain this ("v").
But eventually, life's a highway. & a highway always have 2 way streets.
Love is made up of you & me. It's reciprocal. My last try to win him over completely, to move him, to assure him that all these we are going through is worthwhile. If I fail terribly again, I'm letting go.... Cause I'm at my wits end.

Nevertheless, I love you so.


Oogay, for everyone of you, may all your wishes & dreams come through, & have a prosperous 2010! Huat ar! :o)

Last moments of 2009 in Kuishin-Bo. Courtesy of Victor's Iphone.

Happy smiles which I hope there'll be many more to come..

22nd Dec - BL

The day I.........

Rin.Eve.Ah Jie

joined Black Legion.

23rd Dec - Hatyai Family Trip with Baby


Pardon the very CMI me.
I usually go make-up-less when I go on a trip..
Bad dec for me. Late nights everyday without fail, going to bed as late as 4 5am consecutively for 3 weeks totally took my youth and beauty (the very little bit that I have) away...

Tammon & Baby

Baby was taking pics of naughty little Raelene.
See she stick her tongue out.
Naughty girl!! (But super cute~)

Baby, Karlene & I in the room cam whoring.

Little Karlene is hooked on taking pics of her kok peng kor kor..

Superbly lack of sleep.
Must Cover my really panda eyes. ='(

One word. Cui.

Karlene & Baby.
Both like superglue throughout the trip.

"Rin yiyi" also must 靠边站..

Funny face shot.

Funny Face Shot.
Basically our little photographer Karlene instructs us to do whatever expression.
Haha.

Kpo hor this little girl?
We talk she also want to take. Bth. -.-"

Entertaining~

Act cute!

Mr Q.

Here's our little cam-whore~

See how much she likes her kok peng kor kor?
She kiss him on her own accord one please.

Our trip back.
His first experience on the plane..

Oogay, this entry has taken me so long..
It's 530am now. I'm so bloody tired already..


When I got home just now, while removing my make-up, I was feeling so bored.

& there are quite a number of times (when I've got enough sleep that is), after I remove my make-up, I feel that I actually look better without my make-up. =X

Tonight's one of the nights I feel so again.

So here's a shot I took:

Can you tell the difference?
Left eye: Without Make-Up
Right eye: With Make-Up
What do you think?

Alright, am off~

Nights, my 1st day of 2010... :o)