♥, *Rin

Day 1

The Day she lost her Smiles

Yesterday, a whole lot of us went loyang point for ktv session.. One purpose: Baby's last day of freedom... Couldnt say i had alot of fun but i enjoyed some's company.. Not ALL of course... =
Went over to put the night at Baby's place.. The moment we reached home from Pasir Ris and i just changed outta my clothes, Baby's family called and said to go to Jalan Kayu for some tea.. So off we went again.. By the tym we go back it was already 130+am.. Went home and everyone started to help Baby pack he's stuff for today... Finished packing at lyk 3? And all of us were supposed to get up at lyk 6 cus we wanted to go have breakfast before sending Baby off...

Lights out at 3+.. Uncontrollably, tears started to flow lyk a steep downwards river... I think i cried for almost an hour non-stop.. Baby had to stare at me and ask me to keep quiet right at the moment... But i failed... Kept crying till baby just left me lying beside him sobbing away while the totally exhausted him was trying to sleep... Cried to sleep at prolly 4+ and woke up an hr+ later at 6... Swollen eyes, terrible dark circles, totally indescribable mood and feeling...

Off we went to Pasir Ris for breakfast then we went to take the ferry to Pulau Tekong.. The place was totally way out of how i thought Tekong would be like... Anyway went through all the talk, orientation, heard Baby and the rest pledge the oath.. Stood unmovable to the National Anthem.. I felt proud and very sad for Baby...

We were allowed to have the testing sample of lunch with Baby... That was my last meal with Baby... I could tell how Baby totally felt.. No smiles, moodless, extremely disappointed not to even see he's friends... Tired... Tough.... My heart already ache so so much... After lunch, Baby sent us off to the jetty, where we had our last warm hug.. I tried so so badly to fight back my tears.... I succeeded but deep down i was torn to bits and pieces... He bid gdbye to all of us and off he walked away... Alone, with just a heavy backpack with him.. While walking away, i turned back several times.. But Baby never once turned back.. I just saw him walk away with a desperated backview...

Left with Baby's family.. Didnt had the mood to go to Pulau Ubin with em, so i told em i'll go off first.. Baby's sis gave me money to take a cab home... Was very sweet of her i really appreciated that... Baby's sis told me how worried she was for Baby for he was such a spoilt child.. A child who has never done housework, a child who never sleeps without the air-con... And now, he has to do area cleaning in he's bunk, wash he's own uniform and laundry for the next 2 weeks in camp... It is sucha lucky thing that Baby and Hoho ended up in the same company and same platoon but Hoho was sent back due to some injury 2 weeks back.. Otherwise, Hoho would have Baby and Baby would have Hoho... *Sighhh* How how sad.... I guess its gonna be very hard for my darling dearest baby but i guess he's gonna grow up soon......

Thanks to Ping ping jie jie...
Ur sms said:"Last nite you didnt sleep much better catch a nap. Dun have to worry about roland. He is a tough guy. 2 weeks will pass very fast."
Jie jie u r worried too yet u r consolling me... Thank u so much.....

Thanks to Tony..
Ur sms said:"Dun worry la, next tym he come out will fit fit le.. Dun becus he go in army then u all break up.. Like that very wasted.. Try to be more understanding towards him in future cos some people find army life very stressed up..When he's not around and you got any problem can look for us too.."
Though i dunno why u always disappear w/o a reason and come back lyk all has never changed, ur sms touched my heart.. Dun worry, i will not break up with roland because i love him too much that i am willing to do anything just not to lose him... U take care too...

Thanks to Da..
Ur call though came in at the wrong time but i acknowledge the care and concern u have for me.. Thank you so much sweet love... *hugs*