♥, *Rin

Someone whom I once loved. The couple we were. The couple who were crazily in love. Is no longer existent. Dead. & will NEVER ever EVER be alive again.


Its been almost 4 over months now. Yet, all is coming back.
This is the last post that I'm going to mention bout you. When you were out of my life, i never intended you to exist in this online diary of mine. Not that you are back in my life now that I'm mentioning about you again.


I have nothing to hide.
It's only a matter of whether I choose to say it out, or not.
Apparently, he still doesn't register the fact that our broke up was due to me leaving him. Reason being, he never changes he's mistakes and he's attitude.
Once, I made a mistake. In life, who doesn't make mistakes? Everyone deserves to be forgiven. Every deserves a second chance. Even a yellow ribbon campaign has been launched for the prisoners. A chance for them to rehab.
However, my point here is, I don't expect to be forgiven, neither do I need you to forgive me.


Yet, he harps over this single mistake to the cause of our break up, taking this opportunity to cover all he's mistakes and him being the cause of our failure in our relationship. To the extent, he called up my best friend. The whole idea? To gain sympathy. To badmouth me; To tell my best friend what kind of a person I am, without even thinking that my best friend knows me for 8 years. Compared to the 2 years we've been together? It's just crazy. You think you will know me better than her. *snigger* can anyone tell a better joke than this?


Whatever you are thinking, I don't really care. Really. I can't believe I couldn't live without you once. You: Telling everyone you know. Now, even calling my friends up. Twisting the facts and timing of events that already happened. Contradicting yourself. Can't face the fact that you were the one who crashed everything we built with both of our hands. Can't seem to move on. & now, probably can't accept that someone loves me and dotes on me more than you do. Can't accept that I'm living my life so happily now. With my boyfriend, my boy. Peng, the guy whom I missed years back. But fate brought us back and I hope it stays this way. For I've never seen a heart purer and more true than his. I may love you in the past. But now, I love Peng more, tonnes more than I did for you in the past. And he's love & care for me, I can be very sure, wouldn't be any lesser than yours. You once told me. If one day, I ever leave you for another guy, the guy had better be better than you or you wouldn't be able to accept it ever for losing to someone worst off than you. Yes, that is how egoistic you are.
Now, I didn't leave you for him. I left him for you were such an ass. Broken promises and bad habits that you never made it a point to change it for good. & you probably think peng is worst off than you that's why till now, you can't accept it. Let me say this once and for all, if you think this way, face it. Don't always adopt the 'oh-i'm-so-great' attitude. Don't think you are that amazing. For peng is so much more a wonderful person than you. Get this into that childish kid-like mentality of yours.


I was bothered. I admit. But I thought about it. My closest friends and my boyfriend is with me in this. You know what? Whatever you are trying to do, call up my friends, gain their sympathy, utter bullshit and waste their time, go ahead. Attempt to make my life miserable or even break peng & I up. Bring it on.

As said, MY friends. If they are MY friends, they will eventually be on my side if they know the truth (from me) to everything. If you succeed in gaining their sympathy, breaking my friendships, good for you. I wouldn't need friends like them in that case anyway.

As for my boyfriend, oh my god but thanks. You make our relationship stronger for you made me see for real, what an amazing boyfriend I've got. (:



Have I made myself clear enough?

I'm getting rid of you in my life. In fact, I already did months back. But there was a possibility we could be friends again. But now, tsss. Don't even think about it.

The biggest mistake I have ever made in my life, is to love you.


Listen up. "I will NEVER fall, if you ever think you could make me fall with you."



Just fuck off.