♥, *Rin

Today, the reason behind my miseries is revealed.

Xuan had a talk with me. I poured my heart all out to her and she got it in one.
She said something that made me realise: Yes. That's the reason behind that wrenching heart in me.


Now I know why it hit me so hard. With the little help of compare and contrast. Period of time together vs. the amount of activities and memories taken. This IS it. This IS it that led to the downfall of me. This IS it that made me feel so selfless and worthless. Now now, having known that, what's the point? I fell into a deep dark pit yesterday night, not even knowing why I had fallen so deep in despite being conscious. Today, xuan gave me a helping hand and pulled me out of the pit. She even told me why I had fallen. The point is, I've already lost my soul. I've already lost me myself and I.



How do I go from here?
How do I start to find me back?
I'm clueless.
Perhaps like all people love to say,"Time will tell."
Xuan thinks that I'm silly to unintentionally hurt myself so badly in this way and that I should never do that again..

I wish I wish...
It's all too late now isn't it?







Its no point crying over spilled milk.