♥, *Rin

My so-called long leave is over.
Tmr's back to lonely days.. Full force loneliness. =(
Aunty RED is here to visit this morning to make things even worst.


I am just feeling so pissy and sick and arrrggh every vocabulary with a negative definition please add it to the list.


I am just so so so sick and tired of it all. That I have to be proven right yesterday. That my happiness is FOREVER short-lived. It's only a matter of time we'll quarrel again. Well. There. It happened again didn't it? I can only have 2 whole days of pure laughter and happiness and that's it. I knew that it was just soon that it's gonna be ruined. I am very very very tired. Each quarrel makes all my hopes and faith go down the drain....
When will this ever end?


I had a talk with my cousins yesterday. Discussing with them that I am gonna announce my boyfriend to my dad on my 21st. My cousins all said that my dad ain't stupid and that he knows, just that he's keeping quiet. Another of my cousin said,"If it's a stable one, then you bring him home." I wanted to reply her immediately,"Yes it's very stable." But somewhere inside me thinks back on how often we quarrel. If there was just ONE week, don't even mention one month. Just ONE WEEK I don't ask for more, that we wouldn't quarrel, I would feel so happy. & the things which we quarrel about are just so trivial it just irks me so so much.


Who can tell me then, if my boyfriend and my relationship is a stable one, that I can proudly and confidently tell my dad that we're crazily in love?
How do you expect me to say that we're in love when we quarrel almost everyday. Tell me. How? How am I supposed to convince my own dad that he's daughter is blissful and fortunately in love and very well taken care of?
Tell me please someone from above.