& now, it's over. How fast! I have been feeling all high and happy because Christmas was round the corner & now, all the excitement seemed to have died down. Plus, the lack of plans for the celebration of the festive season made everything else a tad too disappointing..
Had a bad headstart for the last week when I was happily looking forward to it with all the quality time with boyfriend and all. Ended up everything turned out the other way round. Quarrels after quarrels every single day without fail over the most trivial matters. The miseries, anger, heartaches & tears. I was almost driven to the breaking point. Everything else simply didn't seem to work out for me. Thankfully, I pulled through and I'm already halfway through a new week.
Technically, it's Wednesday now and I'm gonna meet up with ah gan for our new year shopping later on.. How exciting! *claps claps* Last year was all about online shopping and I swore I had the ugliest new year ever. This year, I'm gonna make things right again by dolling myself up just like what I do every start of the year and have a pretty princessy year all over again! A brand new year, a brand new agenda in life, a brand new & lasting future with the last boyfriend (my dearest peng peng) I wanna have & lastly, a brand new adult life with the age of 21. (:
Christmas 2007 was pretty much a normal day but it was indeed a joyful day because after the daily quarrels boyfriend and I had since last week, finally it all came to a closure on this very day. Christmas Day! Though it was a short day together, we had a happy time without any arguments or quarrels... How nice! *smiles dreamily* x)
Christmas Eve started out good but ended up pretty bad. I'm still so very sorry Xuan, that I asked you out and yet I believe it wasn't a very enjoyable time spent together (as compared to the other night out to town yes yes? ;)) to have to witness such an unpleasant happening. My bad. I owe you one for that. Anyway, I'm loving your Christmas present to bits because it is so so cute and pretty! Thank you for all the effort and hard work that you put in. *mmmmmmuah!!* XD
Anyway, despite having a bad ending, Christmas Eve 2007 is a very significant day and it holds a very special meaning to me because my boyfriend got me an extremmmeeeeeely pretty ring! & I am loving it so so much! It is common to see boyfriends buying their girlfriends rings or wearing couple rings or stuff like that. Why so, is it of such significant importance to me? That is because...... it's a fulfillment of a pact, that only boyfriend and I know. Hee. (: Thank you thank you thank you boyfriend! *hugs & kisses, ur princess rinnie* ;) (Psst. From, "Adrianna, WOW." LOL! *wink* =D)
To my very own, 1 & only dear boyfriend:
Sometimes I really can't comprehend and give reason to the amount of anger that builds up in me over things which you do at times, which more often than not, ends us up in a huge fight or tiff. I care for you, my boy. The more I care, the angrier I get. If I didn't care at all, I wouldn't even be bothered, let even be angry with you. You mean something to me you know that don't you? & its not any "something" I am referring to. Something "something" which is so dear to me and I can't afford to lose & it really upsets me when I feel that you probably don't care about me the way you did in the past anymore though you always say that that isn't the truth at all. They say that actions speak louder than words but I guess love speaks louder than actions doesn't it? Though I may always feel the wrong way, I should have known that you always love me so dearly with all your heart and that you never wanted to give me up and everything that you do, it's all for me... I should have always trusted you. & I know I can trust you. The happiness that I feel when I'm with you is entrenched in my heart and nothing else matters more than this feeling I get. No one else knows better than us how important we are to each other, how much we mean to each other that nothing can tear us apart.. Maybe in life we tend to take people for granted, maybe take each other for granted too. Or maybe sometimes when we get angry we tell ourselves that maybe we are better off without each other, but truth is boyfriend, I wake up each day, realizing that I love you more than the day before. I don't wana fight with you anymore...
I love you & I truly do~
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